Acting.
im bad.
i act to be strong.
i told baby im ok. im not.
it hurt so bad.
i duno wht went wrong.
just hurt. my emotion fails me.
not baby. not work. i duno is abt wht.

suddenly i felt empty like i felt in da past.
as i walked home. my tears keep rollin dwn.
on my way home in da train.
i close my eyes. tears just flow.
wht wrong with me?
perhaps im too stressed up.
it just hurt so bad.
got pressure and stress by the person in my dept.
she dun seem to cherish and take care of books.
she bang the book so hard. i got scared and pressure n next min i ended up with a fever.
oh wadde hell.
im so timid. yaz. i am.
she won after a short argument of wantin to eat last.
den she changed her mind n said she eat 3rd.
den bryan went to eat without me. had dinner alone with just a few fried wanton n my comic books to keep me company.
was sad at the end the ending of the book that night die. n rikko didnt choose anyone.

i been forgetful these days to keep my hi card sufficient credit to allow incoming call.
baby was mad ytd n she said she called but i got no credit n she said she will nv call again.
i went to slp speechlessly.didnt noeing wht to said anymore.
on my way to work. i thought to myself.
she might be expecting my msg so yupps i gave her a msg.
n i gave her a ring during the break.
she sounded so unhappy becuz she said i sounded so.
we ended the conversation not very happily.
she said she wanna smoke.
i was sad. but guess she dun understand.
den after tht i receive 2 msg frm her.
sayin she was a notti baby n let be like last time.
everything was fine till tht woman gave me so much pressure that i cant stop but to cry.
duno why. just feel like crying.
n this time. my baby do not noe why i cry.
guess she think was silly. oh well.
i acted strong in front of her keep tellin her im ok.
but im not i suppose so.

communication broke dwn?
i felt empty deep within.
why is that so?
i miss ur hug when i cry.
i miss ur kiss when i sad.

ah. nvm.
but i still love her. love her very very much. more than anythin.
im sorry. just dun wan u to worry cuz u have 2 test next week.
i dun wan to disturb u...sorry.*wipe tears*