Week 7 in Australia
us viewing sunset tgt.

i woke up 15 mins after baby left for school.
as usual...she will kiss me before she leave. she alwaz so sweet. :)
im missing her now. hehe.

recently so many things happen nt between mi n baby of cuz.
it is between jean n A. wht can i said..
as an outsider of the whole case..even though i was an outsider...
i saw my past within. i hate to see that.
all n all the situation just seem to be so clear that i started to ponder abt my past.it awful when u sat beside the window n wait for the one u love cum home n u couldnt find her at all.it terrible to feel when all n all u did was just merely "doing extra..caring extra"
FREEDOM was the word...an excuse for everythin in a r/s.
how funny can a r/s be...when the beginning was alwaz sweet and then to sorrow n dwn with tears. n partin with all sort of reasons and excuses.

does it mean that alot of things happen in a r/s...it mean it the end.
i thought if things would have settle properly from the start there would nt be any existing problem occuring and it would not accumulate till exploding and deterioting to this state.ha..i noe..i noe..im still the same old me..NAIVE. lols.

but sometime...leavin can also be a good thing becuz both reali doesnt seem to work things out tgt. still im still glad i choose to leave some pple in my life cuz if it drag further...it would be just hurting each other more and more.

there are many not answer doubts to many pple in my life.
the reason for loving..the reason for partin..the reason for blah n blah..
i admit...i have nv stop running away...running away frm everything..
but to some pple in my life...i have nv run away from u...but neither i wanna face u ever again.

the sentence: "can we be frens after we break up?"
till now...i still insist on a definite NO to it.
REASON: u can act as if nothing happen b4...but it could only extend my misery and sadness or perhaps extendin urs.
pple leave pple becuz of certain reason..if pple could ever realise where their problem lies. that the problem why pple left.

yawn...wht was i tokin abt early in the morning.
im havin slpless night lately...i could hardly get myself to slp and if i wake up somehw..i try so hard to get bk to slp. so i stop tryin. i wake up n rot like now.
baby pract day today n tomolo. i be well rottin at hm 2 daes and the weather was so good. wht a pity. but it rather cosy n nice to stay hm cuz it warmer out there nw n cooler in here.

i hate to count dwn nw...but my nutcase just sometime started doin the counting.
it 6 days away to my birthday.
it 10 days away to leave baby.:(
well..and it gonna be another 33 days to see baby after i leave.
n oh ya...it 4 days to school. lols.
the school web suxs. cuz it havent upload my modules n i wanted so bad to see who in the same class as mi. haix. hopefully the pple are nice.

bb finish sckol at 530...still got 4 hrs to go..yawn. flipping thru my game folder. let see wht game shld i play. thought of changin my blogskin but my butts hurt.
im still thinkin wht to cook for dinner for bb. hehe. we shall see..kakaka.
friday goin handorf. goin to strawberry farm. *excited*

to baby: i dun care hw long..hw far we could go...i do not hope for a forever. im contented that u love mi this much at this point in time. thank you for everything u given..the love..the concern..the attention and ur trust and faith.there are many a time u are giving in to mi..i noe..i noe it very well...pls dun feel sad or miserable abt giving in cuz i noe..i noe everything u done for mi. i love u..just as much as u love mi. muacks. u are alwaz my precious bb.