Stay away from nw on.
it doesnt matter who is right or wrong anymore.
from today on,i decided to mute. whether u did tok to me or nv.
i will not beg u to accompany me anywhere or no where.
go ahead go laugh at my dressing..
go ahead to tell the whole world i have attitude problem.
i wun say a single thing ever more.
ha..so funny isnt it..my sister said tht i do not have any friend becuz i have a attitude problem.
till then they alwaz assume they are the most understandin-me creature in this entire universe.
i dislike those who think they jolly-well noe me damn well which they noe shit abt me. just like my secondary fren.
stop makin frens was a restriction i set to myself becuz im so scare they will harm me and make mi lose everything just like the past. didnt they understand this meaning? it got nothin to do with my attitude. if u still wanna think tht way den i got nthin to say...
one whole day of tired work...came hm take off my shoe...she provoked me by sayin i used her things which i didn't. wht the heck.
i nv do anything and nv even tok to her. so isnt tht great tht things turn out this sour. i nv disturb u...u dun cum disturb me! i nv use ur things u ASSUME n said i use it. FINE den. i had used all ur things includin the things i nv used.
it hurt so bad when things got wrong n nana sided her n she said i have attitude problem too.
i been tryin hard to change wht ur said the so-called attitude problem...being nice to nana n try to be like a fren in school and at hm to do wht i can do to be a no-attitude person. this is wht i got. 2-HEADED snake. forget abt everything cuz it have stab me thru the heart. go ahead n enjoy ur sisterhood without me.
i have hide myself within this room becuz i felt safer here. no one cum n hurt me..no one critcise me on my dressing...no one blame me for the things i nv do. till then i long forgotten wht is communication. i have a big psychological barrier which i thought ur have noe...but none of ur noe wht i felt. hw nice to be sisters. this is hw much u understand me. didnt ur noe all the while i have isolated problem...but nvm nw.
ur went out with ze without me while im workin so hard at work n coping with skol as well. im fine with it. ur gang up n argue with me even tht particular same day pple at work had bully me..that fine with me. but wht the hell did i actually do when i alwaz hidin in this room....to deserve all this. i have change for a better but ur feel i had becum worst...so wht for being nice to anyone of ur when i squeeze all my n leit money to get ur sumtin when im in aussiez. it hurt so bad but i just quietly swallow all...
just frm nw on...stay away frm me. go far far n enjoy ur 3 sibling life without me like wht ur alwaz does. i have enuff. im shuttin the doors. dun ever step in. cuz ur cum into my life nt to make me feel better but to hurt me just like my friends when i nv do anything. NOTHING.
so this is the ending stories of 3 happy siblings.
im tired...tired of everything...if oli i can die...hw nice would tht be...i dun wan to go that hospital again but i feel is all coming back to me...all over again...