no more should i anot
my mind is clear as the clear blue sky...
the previous entry was a random thought tht i concluded a sucky week...lols..

i decided not to cut my hair
i decided not to quit my job...for wht sia..hahaha..
i decided not to fly over for the time being although i miss her dearly
i decided not to get lost from any place...lols..why must i? lols

this week was another hectic week...
next week will not be better either...
becuz of poh yee leaving..everything was all jumble up and must be done by this month..
hasnt reali doin much on my stores..was doin all sort of reporting and explaining..lols..
i value the knowledge my mum has taught..although last time she alwaz remind me n i just doesnt wanna listen to her...nw tht i need to explain to pple and remind dem frm doin...it was reali a cycle..lols

i was mad. pretty upset last week..
the inner voice told me so much tht i just wanna run away frm the fact tht such pple exist in my life AGAIN.
she told me i was one of the best tht learnt and cope with everything this fast..
she step me dwn by sayin..hey i think u got her wrong..tht not wht she meant. the other colleague b4 u was doin equally as gd as u...
is it a must to bring me dwn? is it a must to be tht frank?
i was just havin tht bit of motivation word frm her to hold me dere for a period of time.
her words was harsh. i felt so upset. tht she destroy my motivation power to keep me movin on..
but nw my thoughts has a better idea...i decided to take the challenge...

to face her..to deal with her..
to prove her words was all sort of crap...

she was almost incapable and slow.
i took the initative to help her thru and gave her strength when she couldnt face the present...
she wear a mask...a mask which tellin me tht she is so fake n had go all the way out to tell the whole world...she is slow,incapable,timid and so on....when she is nthin of this mentioned...hw terrible...

but once again..
i am not afraid...so do wht u can do...step me dwn for all u care...it will not affect me...n never...i mean again...:)

i am who i am nw...everytime i fall...i grew stronger than before...