Crossroad
well..im tryin...tryin real hard to blog as often as possible..
i guess i got nt much excuse to said...oh i cant blog becuz im too lazy to sign in blogger..
nw that my com is alive...thank to kevin...blogger automatic log mi in forever...
so one click...n i can type my new post..oh well...

it a really tired day..
4 days for crackin head..
1 days of roaming round singapore..
enuff for this week...im totally wear off...spare me..

i have this sudden tot..
this year is the year tht i shldnt sit dere n stare..n day dream...i must put all my dreams n hope in action soon...just in case i do not have enuff time to fulfill dem all...
this tot keep coming back to me...i must get everything done asap...just in case is too late...
nt tht im goin to die tml...but wht if i did...haha..who noe wht happen tomorrow...
i am 24 this year...arghh..wht a old age..
i was telling muifen..."ehh muifen u 24 hor?!"
den she stare at me with a blank face said.."nicole..is you la...im 25 already!"
for a second i was thinkin...isnt im 22 this year...ohh well...dream on...lols..

i am in a mix...
sumtime i blame myself for thinkin so much all in one time...

Choice 1: To change or not to change...

my job was indeed an exciting job...i met lotsa new pple..thru out this whole year...i grow..i see things in a wider scope...viewing risks,pros and cons a clearer picture...but...somehow...
this job bring me no where...but a resume of experience..
yes...i noe i noe...with experience it bring mi to a higher position...
but...my post had got me far enuff never to touch accounts and work as an external auditor...
becuz internal auditor hardly touch on figures..beside selling price,cost price...nos of stocks...and how much money u count..
i guess this job is almost to be able to be done for a O level kid..or perhaps secondary..
i love the atmosphere...the excitement when it come to goin new stores and doin reportin..cuz u got to plan..plan ahead of u...wht and how u wan things to work ur way...n indeed...this whole year...my plan goes so well...tht same time i finish my stores early..i ended roaming around seeing n shopping at malls or shops..n wake up later to go stores...im gettin lazy...or is it im too tired...or is it...i do not have tht passion anymore...
i love audit..becuz it close my personal value,interest and character...it matches mi so much tht thinkin abt giving up..it sadden me..*shake head*

i just send a stupid resume as an event executive..haha..wht was i thinkin for tht minute..ohh dear..lols..

Choice 2: To Study or not to...

I am planning to continue my study for my degree..in PSB academy...either Bachelor of Science (Honours) Accounting and Finance in University of London or Bachelor of Science (Honours) Business Studies by Loughborough University, UK. So if u were me...which one will u take up?
I got exemptions for University of London to complete my degree 8 modules in 2 years payin 8k..as for the other one i did not ask...lols..

My education shldnt end just here..i go as far as possible so that i will not regret in the future..last time when im working at je...i alwaz feel tht i shld follow my mum..she doesnt wan status..she just wan the cash...for the sake of the family..she is willing to do it...cuz she noes..the higher she climb...the risk of falling might be higher..but as for me...i dun wan to be just an assistant for life..i truly noe tht my life would be different from others becuz one day they get married..they will have a family..everyone feel is too early to said tht my life is forever this way...but see..i am already 24...my crooked life had lasted for almost 10 years...haha..my mum told me the other day abt my life n my future..i didnt wanna leave my job becuz i am not even a year old at my job..thus i choose to stay and when the time is right..i will leave..

everything is a tough choice...isnt it...lols...tht is life...life with choices...and once you choose the wrong choice...there might be no turning back...for a indecisive girl like me to make up my mind...is so damn hard...