Happy Chinese New Year
hi...back..am sorry fail to put up the xmas pic..
i received lotsa presents..thank you all...love it alot..

BB is back to jb today...
so as at today...i am alone in my room...
BB n i just feel rather upset that we need to be separate for 4 days..
but is ok la..i will try to keep myself as occupied..bleh!

for the past few days we been doing alot of cleaning and clearing in the room...
guess wht..i am still cleaning the room...
i cant dare to think abt living room, kitchen and the laundry area...
is getting out of control...n it just simply pissed me off..
every year we got to do this cleaning and throwing stuffs...and is alwaz so last min..
this yr seem like everyone couldnt be bother at all...
no one does any cleaning except the rooms..
hw i wish no one visit my house...i simply hate it when u need to start packing n clearing stuffs...n best things is...nthing out there belong to me...
if everyone knew the meaning of organised, responsible i guess the house wouldnt be in such a bad state...
i am finding ways to skip my presence at hm when pple come to my hse for visiting...becuz ME dun deserve the scolding or neither those terrible and hurtful remark...
should i start packing or should i just let dem see this what my hse really look like...every yr i am the one panicing...damn it...i am tired of it...

lately i been quite stressful...not really totally on work...but it just the cleaning plan make mi headache n i just feel like moving out...this house seem like it doesnt belong to me...i am organised and my room is alwaz in gd shape..perhaps abit of sweeping and vaccuming need to be done only...but look at the rest of the part in my hse...can god just simply blink and throw everyone things away...i guess no one is to be blame in the family for this but perhaps some of them might really need to do some reflecting in dealing with their personal belonging and having them organised and pack nicely...arghhh...it just kill me everyday n night when cny is drawing near and they are still going out almost every single day and some MIA...haix...i dun wan to be scolded and blamed for their bad habits...*god, please take mi out from this situation. let the people who have done this to deserve what they deserve and not me...sigh..."

i was really slpy just nw...but then again i think of the hse i cant slp...i decided to rest for today and start clearing the stuffs at the living room...FYI...the usual...throw away!!! i guess i should grab some big rubbish bag frm the supermarket tml...

got my confirmation letter...it been 6 mths already...time passes so fast...i enjoyed myself there definitely...i have opportunity to learn new things, contribute some ideas into my work and getting it evaluated and implemented...lols..and receive a few dollar for that...lols...i would said i have met 2 really good boss which guide and teach me alot of things...thank you so much...i really hope to continue to do my best and work with them as a team...

i applied my degree course. - university of london (accounting and finance degree with honours)..most probably it will be startin in mar if i am one of the successful applicant...and that time i will be super busy with lotsa skol work , taking care of my baby zai and office work...i noe i can balance them up...for i am trained by my mum last time...hehe...i hope that i could really make it thru...as tis is all i am waiting and chasing after for...i really wish that a chance will be given...i found the meaning of why i study...not becuz of my dad that he really wish me to go in poly...not becuz of my mum that she wanted me to be good...is just a simple answer...for myself...for my loved one..this paper could bring another higher height in my life...and i am really excited abt it...=)

oh yes...nt forgeting my beloved baby zai...i noe u alwaz support me in whtever i do...n alwaz pick me up when i fall...thank you for loving me every single day and night...u and i noe we are almost inseparable...lols..i just wanna spent a whole lifetime with u, living tgt..cooking tgt, playing tgt and lots more...there might be alot of ups and down...we will see thru it all...muackz...

p.s: sadly...i still shed some tears a few times today becuz you are not around with me...i am so not getting used to it...i look forward to see you home on tue...and we have a gd rest on wed...=)