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Lately

2009-06-15T10:53:00.003+08:00

it's been a long long time since i last blog..
was busy doing up my blogshop and stuffs..
i just sorta watch finish one korean show too..
and there's 2 person which caught my attention..
a look alike jerry yan...his name lee min ho..

another guy name kim hyun joong..

you should really catch boys over flower aka BOF..

seriously i am not a very korean tv fan for drama..i like korean movie only..lols..but this show really makes me addicted...the cast, the storyline..is kinda different from taiwan meteor garden. the feel is very different..
let's analyse a few..

in BOF minho acted as tao min si do not too much guessing game compare to jerry and hyun joong shows a more caring and warm-hearted guy acting as huazelei..and the remaining 2 F4 guy..i would say that vanness and the guy who acted in korean series one playing the same role shows a total different character and personality in the show. vanness was so hyper and the guy wasn't that hyper..and last zhu xiao tian's role in meteor garden..the guy who acted in the korean one was kinda good-looking and his acting was gd too.. you are able to understand his family history and stress he is facing...
i am giving a 5-star for korean one and 4-star for taiwan..
i am not a tv fan..it worth catching it...
one last thing...is not as draggy as taiwan one...the korean one was just nice..nt too draggy..

oh yes before i end...visit my blogshop: www.maikay-alley.com

不完美 - 你讓我的好..變成一種罪..

2009-04-20T17:40:00.002+08:00

你常常說我很完美沒人能取代我給的一切
我就以為我努力更完美我們就會永遠

完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪
完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美也只是不完美

後來你說我太完美值得更好的陪在我身邊
你不是我你怎麼能體會你有多麼珍貴

完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪
完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美也只是不完美

完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪
完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美成了罪

完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪
完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美也只是不完美

Spilt Personality =X

2009-04-17T10:19:00.002+08:00

B型
你是一個有著雙重性格的人。你懂得在不同的場合和不同的生活圈子中，表露最適合自己的一面，但卻不會過分矯揉造作。事實上，你不會為了討好別人而刻意地收藏或誇張自己的特質

hahaha...i am freezin in the office...save me...
morning everyone! YEA! today is FRIDAY!!!
time to party...i am sooo sleepy for nw...sob sob...

aNother Quiz

2009-04-07T21:50:00.002+08:00

What type of lesbian are you? lols!

You are the hottest leader around! You are strong and influential. You are not afraid to fight for what you want, no matter what the cost. You are very independent and don't care what others think of you. You are loyal and take care of those who have won over your heart. You are a type A personality and like to have all of your prospects in order before you make a move. You never pursue a venture that you haven't researched first. In bed you are a top, and get a kick out of dominating your partners. You have a big heart and an even bigger ego, but thats ok because it has brought you nothing but success in life. Make sure you take time to listen to your partners, because while it's nice to be taken care of, it is essential to be heard.

random

2009-04-06T01:22:00.012+08:00

i guess the layer of dust just too thick to wipe..lols...
few months have passed...many happy, sad, angry moments..
too many to pen down any...
guess some stuffs is just good to remain deep within me..
some stuffs that are disturbing..
some stuffs that are unbearable..
some stuffs that are meaningless to do anything nw...
times just dun rewind...
i lost someone...

my econs n maths course startin may 4...
my bangkok trip booked...flyin may 1 to 4...
prayin hard i will have a good rest n enjoy my trip to the fullest...

did a survey...pretty true abt myself..
it would be better to share it here den facebook...lols..

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October

Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

look like there are more bad point than good point huh...
guess environment just keep shapin mi..
im amazed...there are newly-discover character traits abt myself..
some time i dun even recognize myself...ha...

Summary

2009-03-03T01:47:00.002+08:00

been away for many many months becuz i am too busy with my life...lols..
i have to be a gd n hardworking worker..
a nice n obedient wife...
a cool friend...wht else...hahaha..

i have a peaceful cny...
cutting dwn almost abt 7kg really make me feel so happy...
but well i am not yet satisfied...=x

valentine day had a 3 person date...with my BB n her sis..den met up with her bro n her sis-in law...so is more like a family outing..
went JB last last weekend...got some nice ktv disc..n went red box to sing...i managed to sing all the songs that i wished to sing..=p

my job is getting busier n busier day by day..but well as i mentioned b4...work is alwaz neverending...i decided to pamper myself abit more..by applyin for my degree..i guess it could be the right time nw for me to start my 2 yrs degree...it could be tedious...but im ready to start the race again...my part time skol n my full time work...it sounded so much like my life in je then...honestly i miss those days...=)

passed my basic...passed my advanced..nw...driving lesson...sharks! manual...sian...BB started her driving lesson n she could tell me lots of her funny encounter during her driving lesson...the days when she have driving until 730...i would stayed in the office abt 620+ n reach bukit gombak at 715 n quietly sit dwn there n wait for her to finish lesson...i wish everytime she has lesson i would be able to fetch her..i noe she is excited n happy to see me after her lesson..

my love for her grow every single day...i cant imagine life without her...becuz she is totally a part of me nw...im glad that i could be a part of her new learning journey...nothin can describe hw blissful i am havin her by my side every single day...=)

sumtime i just cant deny hw much i hated guys...why do guys think they are so popular n everyone likes them...this guy in my office just couldnt stop seeking attention...what make me detest him the most is...he cant seem to get his personal life n work life clear...he get emo when his gf annoy him...he get upset n eventually broke up with his gf...n wht next...the healing part...when everyone gt to play a part n spare a tot for him...n spend time to console n tok to him...den less than a mth...he is with another new girl...a new girl which he knew barely less than a mth..my the other ger colleague gt really worked up...for wht reason i duno...n she landed up sayin she is totally devasted...gosh..

wht make mi feel the whole thing was a crap...when the guy came n tell me that this ger colleague of mine went to tell him "nic is so worried for you...n you are making somebody upset..." goodness...since when...i am worried as friend for him...but i am totally not upset...
just feel that this 2 pple bring me a play a wonder of merry go round...i feel like a kid...totally disappointed n half-hearted whtever they said nw..n it becumin like a love triangle or sumtin..cuz the ger colleague will not go lunch with the guy colleague if i am goin...it sound so wrong...

I AM TOTALLY INTO girls! and Leit Wong is the love of my life...n she mean the whole world to me...what are they thinkin...totally crappy...childish n on n on it goes....i just pray absolute peace n harmony at work...

end.

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-24T01:35:00.002+08:00

hi...back..am sorry fail to put up the xmas pic..
i received lotsa presents..thank you all...love it alot..

BB is back to jb today...
so as at today...i am alone in my room...
BB n i just feel rather upset that we need to be separate for 4 days..
but is ok la..i will try to keep myself as occupied..bleh!

for the past few days we been doing alot of cleaning and clearing in the room...
guess wht..i am still cleaning the room...
i cant dare to think abt living room, kitchen and the laundry area...
is getting out of control...n it just simply pissed me off..
every year we got to do this cleaning and throwing stuffs...and is alwaz so last min..
this yr seem like everyone couldnt be bother at all...
no one does any cleaning except the rooms..
hw i wish no one visit my house...i simply hate it when u need to start packing n clearing stuffs...n best things is...nthing out there belong to me...
if everyone knew the meaning of organised, responsible i guess the house wouldnt be in such a bad state...
i am finding ways to skip my presence at hm when pple come to my hse for visiting...becuz ME dun deserve the scolding or neither those terrible and hurtful remark...
should i start packing or should i just let dem see this what my hse really look like...every yr i am the one panicing...damn it...i am tired of it...

lately i been quite stressful...not really totally on work...but it just the cleaning plan make mi headache n i just feel like moving out...this house seem like it doesnt belong to me...i am organised and my room is alwaz in gd shape..perhaps abit of sweeping and vaccuming need to be done only...but look at the rest of the part in my hse...can god just simply blink and throw everyone things away...i guess no one is to be blame in the family for this but perhaps some of them might really need to do some reflecting in dealing with their personal belonging and having them organised and pack nicely...arghhh...it just kill me everyday n night when cny is drawing near and they are still going out almost every single day and some MIA...haix...i dun wan to be scolded and blamed for their bad habits...*god, please take mi out from this situation. let the people who have done this to deserve what they deserve and not me...sigh..."

i was really slpy just nw...but then again i think of the hse i cant slp...i decided to rest for today and start clearing the stuffs at the living room...FYI...the usual...throw away!!! i guess i should grab some big rubbish bag frm the supermarket tml...

got my confirmation letter...it been 6 mths already...time passes so fast...i enjoyed myself there definitely...i have opportunity to learn new things, contribute some ideas into my work and getting it evaluated and implemented...lols..and receive a few dollar for that...lols...i would said i have met 2 really good boss which guide and teach me alot of things...thank you so much...i really hope to continue to do my best and work with them as a team...

i applied my degree course. - university of london (accounting and finance degree with honours)..most probably it will be startin in mar if i am one of the successful applicant...and that time i will be super busy with lotsa skol work , taking care of my baby zai and office work...i noe i can balance them up...for i am trained by my mum last time...hehe...i hope that i could really make it thru...as tis is all i am waiting and chasing after for...i really wish that a chance will be given...i found the meaning of why i study...not becuz of my dad that he really wish me to go in poly...not becuz of my mum that she wanted me to be good...is just a simple answer...for myself...for my loved one..this paper could bring another higher height in my life...and i am really excited abt it...=)

oh yes...nt forgeting my beloved baby zai...i noe u alwaz support me in whtever i do...n alwaz pick me up when i fall...thank you for loving me every single day and night...u and i noe we are almost inseparable...lols..i just wanna spent a whole lifetime with u, living tgt..cooking tgt, playing tgt and lots more...there might be alot of ups and down...we will see thru it all...muackz...

p.s: sadly...i still shed some tears a few times today becuz you are not around with me...i am so not getting used to it...i look forward to see you home on tue...and we have a gd rest on wed...=)

Xmas Eve...

2008-12-28T19:40:00.004+08:00

thank you so much for the all the xmas gifts...

enjoy myself at work with lotsa laughter and fun...

let pray hard that life at work will get less complicated and more fun each and everyday...=)

belated merry xmas and a happy new year 2009 to all...

Ugly people

2008-12-16T15:57:00.002+08:00

many things did happen lately..
was too busy too pen down my tots...
still i can remember what happen on sun..
am i harsh or am i bad..did i disrespect or she does nt deserve my respect..
i wonder some time why people can turn out to be this way...

would you give your niece gift when she was young and ask it back during your rainy days or perhaps dun ask the gift back but the money she spend on the gift?
would you treat your niece eat during her birthday when she was young and expect money in return when she grow big..
sad to said i have a aunt that is like that..
i was never really close to her since my younger days..
she is alwaz using money to buy relationship,friends and even sisterhood...
does money mean everything?
it hurt my mum real bad...and somehw she finding a reason to be strong and move on..
everything is so ugly..

i hop on the train at jurong east and got scolded by a teenage girl when she dashed in to the train to grab a sit and alighted at CCK..what wrong with people these day...what wrong with the transport facilities..do we have to snatch and look so ugly..

i come to work and hear complaint from my other colleagues that they are staying in the office to do work till 12am..what wrong with their boss...

i am lucky..and i cherish every moment of my luck..i have a good boss, a gd supervisor...they are not to the extreme..because they are human and they treat people like human with feelings..

the world is getting ugly each and everyday and i am seeing so much ugly side of it...people push and hit each other in the train..people chase after each and every single day in their life..goin for desires, goals and money..

if only the world can be a better place...hw i wish there is another place which seek eternal happiness and good, nice people..SIGH.

Disappointed

2008-11-26T14:46:00.002+08:00

i am goin bangkok tomorrow...
but today bangkok flight are all cancel...
i thank god that i am safe and sound..
although i am alittle upset and disappointed that i cant go...sigh
that goes my flight holiday with BB...=(

Love have no Boundaries!

2008-11-24T09:26:00.002+08:00

im in the office..
so sad...i can do everything and anything except sleeping..=(
im gonna face a "30 mins can be done" file for 8.5hrs...haix!
hearing 933 now..really hope it will nt becum a lullaby...lols..

im looking for my trip..but oso there sorta fear there..
becuz many things going on there...praying for a safe journey..
going to bangkok on thurs..
my very 1st trip with my BB takin the plane...hw cool..
i am so excited...

just a re-cap..
watched madagascar - escape to africa
funny...funny..i enjoyed cartoon with my love...
well simply exclude asterix, adam family and some jap comics cartoon..
i have a research topic to do....time is so limited...
there is so many places i wanna go in BKK...=(

Dear Friend

2008-11-20T13:26:00.001+08:00

Pain is inevitable
suffering is optional.

till we meet again...handsome boy!
9.45pm on 19 Nov 08..
remember i alwaz love you and i will nv forget u..=)

rainy day

2008-11-19T16:52:00.001+08:00

this morning i saw kiki...
he is lookin at the door...
wanting to tell mi sumtin...
what was he tryin to tell me...
i pray...for who is sick and ill...pls use ur healing hand to heal them...
give them a chance to choose to live or to die...
dun take them away without permission...
i pray.....
kiki, i miss you...

folding edge

2008-11-13T11:45:00.002+08:00

another rainy day...
i am feeling sleepy...zzzzzzzz
finish my work..i am left with no work till my auditees reply my query..
i choose to keep my thinking positive so to prevent any damages caused...
oh dear...what can i do nw...origami again?!
not again...sigh...

love love love

2008-11-05T14:07:00.002+08:00

wht a nice title..hahaha..
had my lunch...my fav beef udon at amoy..=p
yum yum..had my long lost fav durian kueh..miss it so much...
but i only bought 1 piece though..lols..

pass my basic theory test..
bookin my advance test..
thanks lee for the wonderful tips..=)
love u!~ hahahaha..

looking forward to my bangkok trip...
i wanna go travelling with my bb...=D

joined facebook...is rather fun though...had lotsa interaction and gt in touch with some of my long lost fren..miss those time when i am in skol..of cuz skol as in ite la..
my sec skol life sux..bad memories..
sorta dun get it...why do some pple just wouldnt wanna get alife and leave me alone..sian..
definitely i will not forgive and will not forget hw they treat me..it is the deepest hurt i ever have..

goodbye my dear old fren...may we nt meet again..

i am getting sleepy..yawn...what a nice weather to slp..it is raining..lols..=D
i am superly enjoyed my working life here with a grp of fun-loving pple...hahahaha...
if only this last forever...hw nice...=)

Finally!

2008-10-27T02:43:00.002+08:00

i really need to post this up...first time ok! after to many practices and race..woohoo~ i finally won in the hurdle race at pet society in facebook..thank to john and suki pet..hahahha...

i need to do some research on my tour...compare and more compare..=P

Happy Birthday to me

2008-10-20T10:56:00.003+08:00

i had a nice birthday this year..
nevertheless i would wan to thank a few people that make it so special this yr..

my BB!

this BB of mine is so funny..she does her homework lookin at so many website but just cant decide which restaurant to bring me to..at the end i insist to eat my fav hog-breath cafe and we shared a cup of berry-bang Boost..all and all is food from aussiez which i miss alot..haha..it bring back so much memories though..
BB is oso very notti...she bluff me said she lost her way near my office area at the end i found her with a bouquet of pink roses..so nice..*touched*
she got me a cake on my bdae so that we could cut it after dinner..=)

LILI, NANA AND JOHN!
thank you for the little twin star cake and little twin star diary 2009..
my birthday celebration with my family..
my birthday celebration with my siblings and cousin..
my birthday celebration with my fav aunt..aunty diana!
i would oso wanna thank all the people who wish me happy bdae..*touched*
like to mention a few people which i was surprise..and i was so happy that they remember..
nash..thank you..had a short chat with him that day..he manage to got home and see me online and sent me his wishes..lols..

geez! my previous boss at metropolitan museum of art..thank you for remembering me..=)

wendy and kevin...thank you for the little twin star gift...i love it...!! it so nice...and it definitely a surprise..thank you so much!

again...definitely there are times that i was pretty upset..people are changing day by day...i really hope one day whtever she said to me that day on da phone..she will feel abit guilty abt it and perhap said sorry to me...haha..well is just a wish..

i told BB i wanted to start a book..named "Book of Hatred and Anger" becuz i cant seem to be able to remember pple who do bad to me..i can forget within a few hrs time..it a disadvantage to me isnt it..*sigh*

i am gettin old..cuz i feel my short term memory is gettin worse...is it in da gene?

Roar ~

2008-10-13T12:57:00.004+08:00

monday blue..
monday blue..
monday blue..
i am feelin so so moody...
4 more days to my BIG DAY!
I just god give me a smooth, peaceful and happy day that day..
damn the internet is down...sian...every 3 mth once...
moral of the story...pay ur bills promptly..arghhh..
SIAN!!!!

我会很爱你!

2008-10-02T11:48:00.003+08:00

初次见面就占据我心中
部署星空只为了你等候
每个角落擦肩而过被缘分捉弄

突然相遇在转角的街头
抬头感动我只想对你说
快乐难过不能错过对你的承诺
我不太浪漫你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手用全力向天空轻轻呐喊

我会很爱你一百个世纪
很爱很爱你没人能代替
未来旅行 Walkman记录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你四季不休息
打开Walkman 随时就能听见你
Feel My Heart 我最爱最爱的你

Current fetish

2008-10-01T02:36:00.002+08:00

NICE SHOW!!

i am so happy today...took neoprint with BB today...=D

Short hair?

2008-09-26T13:50:00.001+08:00

i saw a profile just nw...
suddenly got the urge to cut short hair...lols...
wht tokin me...sound drunk...wahahaha

i am bored...
do my work too fast..
i shall go enjoy my honey red tea then..
3 and half hrs to knock off...yawn...

Busy

2008-09-18T13:34:00.005+08:00

I am going holiday..
looking at air tix price...looking at hotel rates..
checking goes on and on...

I am going to pursue my degree..
selected my course..
Bachelor of Science in Accounting and Finance at University of London..
but well...registration start in Jan 09..

I am taking my Basic Theory Test for driving..
schedule on 31 Oct..

I am going for training on 10 oct..

I am going for KTV..dept outing today! yippie!

I am loving my baby more and more each day...muackz!
Happy anniversary, my love... =)

Good and Bad Situation

2008-09-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

There are no good or bad situations.
Good and bad arise from our minds.
The foolish man subdues the situation, not his mind.
The wise person works on his mind, not the situation.
If the mind has been tamed, does the situation still have substance?"

"Grasping the basic emptiness of the situation,
we can act from our true nature on the essentials.
If we are unmoved by circumstances,
we will be able to shape circumstances."

Lunch time

2008-09-08T13:01:00.002+08:00

is my lunch time...
just came back from lunch...
usually i eat at amoy..lols..
now reading magazine...and a little while more i will go do my work liao...

yesterday went JB again...notice my passport date...
i almost go in every week..
this week...i am not goin in...
cuz i am gonna stay in sg and spent some time with my family,relative and my BB...
OH YA...and my room!
our room is in a mess...
as usual..we need some house-keeping...
will get it done today...buay tan han,hor?! BB!!!!~~

I miss my crazy girl..whine and whine on the fone..
sms me and complain and complain...lols..
ok la...i shall stop here...

i just simply love to see her slp..so cute..:)

Update

2008-09-03T13:29:00.000+08:00

it been awhile since i last update..
not really busy with work but busy with my games, my bb and so on..
recently been watchin HOUSE...nice show..
hope everyone is fine and well too...
tryin to enjoy my life to the max..
today is a no boss day...bleh....
update soon soon...

Bored Like MAD!

2008-08-05T02:31:00.002+08:00

my title describe my work...
when there is nothing for u to do...
when u were so into a fast moving pace in DFSG..u just duno hw to learn to slow down...
i am tryin...seriously takin my own sweet time for once for everything...

imagine..830 i go in...
i surf net check mail until 12pm..
den after lunch...surf net until 2.30pm..
den after that 230 have WITs training..to about 4pm...
then surf net until 5pm..den meeting with my boss..till 545pm..
15 mins to prepare knock off...
I AM UTTERLY BORED...

the culture down here is seriously different..
they take ages to pass up their documents...delay the checks...n delay my check...n den delay the report..

i am seriously complaining..i am so lost..lost of work to do...
never mind...i will think of more ideas..since i am so damn free for nw...
and i am seriously thinking wht course shld i take up for my degree...n which uni...
shld it be university of london or university of south australia...or shld i just sit dwn n wait for more courses coming up at university of adelaide...they are expanding..and soon it will the 2nd largest campus beside it own uni based at adelaide...

baby bdae on wed...
got my things ordered,reserved...i hope she enjoy the night with me on wed...*beam*
she said she will miss me tml after work...becuz she is being dragged for a dept dinner..n she is whining and whining..
i am glad..she said..she will miss me...i will miss her too...and perhaps even more...
i will see you at home..:) *kiss*

New Job..Get Set Go~

2008-07-29T01:18:00.002+08:00

my first day of work is sorta cool..
my bosses are nice people..with lots of patient..
i look forward working with them and the team..
they are all very experience..i will definitely learn alot alot..
n the training was like WOW! so much..i almost wanna faint..

compare to my previous job..i guess this job is pretty much better..
ok well..keep stayin at office can bored mi some time..but i will try to adapt to it..
met bb for dinner at bugis..had my fav xiao long bao..n a very super small bowl of noodle..
im excited in learning more things and new things..
hopefully this excitement stay long long..
haha..i yet to regret on my decision of leaving my previous job..
thinkin of LE..and her mood swing..i rather stick to my present job..
think of it...is pretty scary..just becuz she wanna show KL how much workload she has..
she stack up all the work and refuse to start reviewing..
so risky..if she cant finish in time..oh dear..

time for bed..im abit slpy..
i am so sad all those games just wouldnt work with the codes..
i still love my QIN emperor..lols..
nitez!

Line

2008-07-24T20:30:00.001+08:00

love and hate
respect and disrespect
anger and sad

this feeling is horrible...
i guess no one understand..

Movin forward

2008-07-20T02:11:00.003+08:00

i guess my bb had fall aslp in front of her new com..
she is so happy with her new com...
so many things to update...
well...everything will be brief...

KL Trip...
last week had a great weekend at KL..
We stayed at Piccolo Hotel...
is so DAMN nice...one of the nicest hotel ever..
becuz is simple..modern and clean...
i seriously dun like the concept of grand hotel...
and the fragrance in the hotel...is so relaxing...
we had 2 movies there...both was so-so..
did great shopping...n eating..
the food..is nice! fried oyster mushroom..n many more..
did fish therapy..so tickling..lols..
did back massage and foot massage as well...
the massage place the ambience..i love it..
japanese concept...i enjoyed the trip...
thank you,baby...for the 3 years anniversary holiday..muackz!

again..let talk about my work..
busy handing over to duno who..
i can imgaine life without me there already...
anyway everything is hay wire nw..
but somehow..im glad i leave..
still not regretting...lols..
3 more days..to my last day...
my new company...CPF Board as an Internal Auditor..
i guess i will be much happier there....at least i am not lost...there is someone to guide me and of cuz a higher pay offered...bleh!
a short break and then i will be squeezin in MRT every morning to go all the way to tanjong pagar..sian..
but i do look forward to it...my aim is gettin nearer...yeah!

i just love going holiday with my BB! next trip...batam?! to be confirm...lols...

Sleepless Night

2008-07-08T01:58:00.003+08:00

Oh dear! it is only tuesday and i got a hard time getting myself to sleep. im dead!
tomorrow is gonna be a awful and tiring day..*shake head

i just wanna blog..wanna blog so much..
i need to get all those tots written down black and white..
or not by 5am i might not be in bed yet...
my brain just couldnt stop thinking..analyzing..reflecting...

Growing Up is a painful thing..
dun u dare think is easy and simple like ABC!
my mum couldnt help but to sit beside and goes on and on..about everyone's life and problem..
i am truly glad that she tryin all her ways and mean to help..
but as u can see..there is nothing much she can do..

CASE 1
my aunt house..running like a crazy fellow from north to central and central back to north..
bringing her everywhere to get legal aid but landed up was yelling and screaming in front of so many people at the MRT Station..
came to our house and collect and check thoroughly on whatever certificate and documents..
i thought da-yee death could bring her to see the truth of everything..instead she still think my mum is goin and chasing after her whatever!
i cant help but to stare at the tv screen real hard..seeing my fav ah sa on the tv..
but then..the inner side of me just wanna go up to her and yell at her real hard..
i control..but why did i control...every time i see her...i cant help but to think of all those bad memories..haix..but thinkin twice..she is mentally unstable..my temper, my anger....
CASE 2
Everyone is growing up...everyone is changin..i can definitely understand the time when i go through those terrible teenager life..i wish i could have a simple one..i wish i could have listen to every single adults that have wasted their saliva on me talking me round..again...there is nothing much i can do..just to let them do wht they wish and fall real hard on the ground...take it as im selfish or bad..and i am not interfering to a certain extent..i believe that is the only way they learn..
i believe everyone has a path to walk..and big lessons to learn during teenager life..it definitely hurt mothers to see them like this..but again..they have to learn through a tougher way since verbal warning is not require anymore..

who doesnt wan to born with a golden spoon..
who doesnt wan to be love and love people forever...
my point of view is...face the reality if u wasnt one..for one who realise his/her situation spare a thought to everyone around..for one who did not wan to face the reality is lying to himself/herself and hurtin every single one...
my point of view is...in my dictionary...FOREVER is not a word to use in a r/s..this word weigh so much that..how much sacrifice u gonna make all this while will earn u nothing but just another broken heart..believe it anot..nothin last forever..everyone come and goes in life..so how sure are u to think he/she is the right one for u...when u have another 3/4 more to go on with life..

till now...i still cant said that Leit is the right one for me..and I am the right one for her..WHY? because we are still tryin to get to noe more about each other every single day..so wht if u play and laugh and had lotsa good fun tgt..wht about the time when u needed someone, the time u needed help? or wht abt can u tolerate with each other moody days, angry time and frustration time..?

losing the opportunity to enter poly earlier on had wasted 2 yrs of my golden time..is an awful feeling and experience when u are just starting to work and people who are younger than u, gettin more pay than u and having the opportunity to take up a degree..and all u can do is to work extra hard in order to get wht u wan...this is the price to pay..an impt lesson to be learn...i envy more than jealous..i definitely blame no one but myself for not listening to anyone at all..haha..love is blind..and when the fold is taken away...look at the mess u created with ur own hand and those words that u hurt everyone who love u dearly...

hey children...is always good to be in the mother's arm...and when they are not around..don't cry and regret for saying she is a wicked old woman who only know how to bark...

it hurt so bad...that i heard this word said to a mother who contribute all her time, effort and so much for her children...i feel so pain..in tears...but i noe truly there is nothing much i can do for the mother for she loves her children so much and the children struggles to break free and care only about wht they feel and think...

life is never easy..u got to earn every single respect, every single trust...
if one could put themselves into their mother's shoe...bringing up all of you is never an easy job...

correct me if i am wrong..

why does ur mum yell and scream at u?
becuz she doesn't noe the proper and correct way to show u how much she loves u...
why does ur mum call you after u finished school and checked on you?
becuz she care about your safety and wanted so much to protect you from any harm even though she is far away from u...
why does ur mum stay up late at night and check whether are you soundly asleep?
becuz she is worry that u will kick ur blanket away and catch a cold..
why does ur mum cried late at night and finding ways and means to seek help to communicate with you...
becuz she loves u so much that she do not noe wht can she do anymore...

can u feel how helpless she is? pls love her and cherish her..

Leavin

2008-06-24T03:57:00.003+08:00

got my confirmation letter signed..
up next...medical check up..
i am changing job.. company to be announced 24/07/08...
perhaps i should said i am totally tired about my current job..
i am tired to be alwaz in the middle..passin msg to this person and that..
there is no independent in this company..
i am leavin for good..
a brand new place..a brand new start..
i am so excited to learn new things once again..
there is too many things i took control in the company...since the team left a yr ago..
whether right or wrong i oso not sure...totally wasting time...
i need to know the standards and rule being my role..
i look forward in find the real meaning of my job role...
i look forward in taking up my degree...my dream is one step closer...
next step..i got to start to save!
goodbye DFSG...thank you for all the memories...
nitez!

Worth

2008-06-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

You can search the whole universe and not find a single being more worthy of love than yourself.
Since each and every person is so precious to themselves,
let the self-respecting harm no other being.

looking back at those silly scars that had left behind....
looking at people loving the way i used to love last time...
i guess i didnt noe the real meaning of love afterall last time...
silly young me....

Recent Teachings...

2008-05-23T23:21:00.001+08:00

after some time i decided to cum in to pen down my thoughts into words...
many things happen during the past 2 weeks..

2 weeks ago...my da yee..one of my aunt left me...
i am still recovering...recovering from the sadness that she is gone...
i guess i cried several time...
again n again i told myself to be strong...but guess i cry bitterly among my siblings..

the time....
- when my mum nag at me to bring "duan yuan dinner" for her at the home during new year eve...
- when i spent doing volunteer work at moral home...
- when i play games and does exercise with her at the home...n pamper her like a small kid and comfort her that she cant have any coins...
- when she call me "lai ming" and said bye bye to me after a long day at the home n look forward for my return..
- when she got beaten up by the maid at the home n i went to moral home HQ to verify and stood up for her...

all n all...it is in my memories....memories just like my grandma...goobye da-yee..

my mum side ladies are all strong woman...through thick and thin...they stood up strong...they do wht they can do...and protect their loved one from any harm...they love every single of their loved one whole heartedly...
whether it is my mum who love us by holding us up when we fall, or aunty diana who love every single one of us like her own child, or aunt fong who pamper us like a small kid...or aunt su who use money to get us whatever we wan..and da-yee..who stood up strong and bear with all those pain thru all life...

the recent disaster in other countries let known to me hw life can be so fragile and i couldnt imagine life without all this people around me nw...i think of future..i fear of future...i fear of losing them...aunty diana got admitted to hospital just a week ago...gratefully she discharge on the very day...when my mum call me n told me that...i broke dwn n cry...i cant afford to lose anyone anymore...i spent the whole evening n night with her at the hospital with BB and my mum..im glad she alright nw...

sunday was cristine wedding and then straight after that i went for vesak day 3 step 1 bow..i start the thing at 3 plus and ended at 6 plus..i only get abt 3 hrs slp on sat becuz we need to go over to aunt fong at 6am in the morning...the wedding was smooth going...and the event was great..everyone enjoyed it...cristine looked beautiful tht day...i hope she will have a wonderful wedding life ahead..:)

back to my job...due to the recent events...my store audit had been a big delay...SN is serving her last mth notice...n i cant imagine life without her in the office...the conflict between KL and ops side is getting bad to worse..things nt done by nor said by me was accused to be all done by me...KL accused me...i kept quiet..n im dumb enuff to said next time i will take note n be careful...STUPID! i got weaker day by day...my confidence seem to be fading off...and again..auditor is never easy with a boss that only know to talk but duno hw to do work..n talk finish accused me said that i said one...good one..i am still tolerating...n i noe sitting down n talk face to face to her is unavoidable..and so wht if i talk...she is not listening..sucks! she is nt qualified to be a boss...just becuz she gt 5 years of working experience in an external audit company make her a manager...n previously in tht company...she does work like mine..she dun even have the power to lead...n definitely i guess i prefer someone who can lead better n i can look upon to...i see no future..no appreciation...so im just gonna work n shut up...im stepping down from some of the impt role...throwing it back to her...becuz she dun even learn to trust...

next week...weekend would be so happening! zooo zooo zooo...BB n i are goin zoo...yeah! i need a break from all this....hw i wish i can travel and recharge again...but BB said no aussiez trip for me this yr...:( which mean i nv get recharge and im gonna die here...hahahaha...

sometime i wish i could be the one that to leave the world first before any of my loved one becuz the one remain hurt more than the one who leave... dun u agree?

2008-05-08T15:18:00.003+08:00

Develop the mind of equilibrium.
You will always be getting praise and blame,
but do not let either affect the poise of the mind:
follow the calmness, the absence of pride.

what is the different between Internal Audit and External Audit...

why does such a dept cant work hand-in hand...she alwaz think she is right...she alwaz argue until she win..she do not wanna listen, she do not wanna discuss...she is the BOSS.

i started to hate this boss of mine..pui!

Sing Along~

2008-04-26T17:13:00.002+08:00

just change the blogskin...at least it look much brighter nw...previously is so dull...make my mood oso dull dull de...
put up my current fav song...nice!!
this song is so nice...sang by kenji...kenji new album is nice...
finally finished my store audit...have a week in the office to wrap up my reports...:)
ytd went over to aunty diana place...aunty diana said im the principal...arrangin tutors for yinting...lols...i have so many experts around me...paul taught yinting physics...leit teach yinting chem...n me...my main role there is to watch tv,eat chocolate and entertain aunty diana...lols...
is nice to have some time to hang around with my aunt..
mother day is around the corner..time to crack head and think...wht to get...
yea! is saturday! time to relax and have fun!! :)

no more sad blogs! is so boring complaining...wahahhaa...!

Whatever come it way...fear not..

2008-04-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

well..long long time...my blog is filled with dust...guess pple already too sick n tired of coming in cuz i hardly blog these days...
alright...i will try..try as often as possible...
ever since BB is here with me...i do not blog as often becuz everything i can just tell her before we slp...is nice to have her around...although sumtime she can be reali *ABCDEFG! lols...it been already 1 yr at DFSG..i got my increment..my appraisal..my everything...perhaps..wht i yet to learn is guardian business and financial audit reporting...SN has finally make the decision of leaving...well..again..back to square one...muifen and i got to teach everyone our business over again..i hardly stay in the office this month...practically everyday store audit..
moving forward...KL said she will put mi into some financial audit project..interns will be coming in to help...it look like things look so good forward...but well...i fear...
im still keep alookout...lookin at the job market...thinkin real hard...my mind is full of qns marks...
life been pretty calm n smooth for me...nt much ups or downs...which i seem to like these peaceful life of mine...been alwaz down with some flu,sore throat and wht so ever...health was pretty weak i could said...i just took my medicine...which im feelin rather slpy already...the medicine react too fast...
i pray hard for tml meetin...i need the strength to stay calm,alert and everything n everything...there is nthing to fear abt...be strong! another impt day for me...

before i go....

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY....BB!

i love u...love u more n more each n everyday...muackz...:)

Today....

2008-03-11T19:55:00.002+08:00

today is my BB first day of work...her first full time permanent job...
so happy and excited abt her new job...the new responsibilities she gonna take up and the new role she gonna play...lols..
we are one step closer living happily tgt...yeap!
me and bb nw oso working..we can do lotsa home improvement...kakakaka...
so happy for her tht the company even send her to NUS for training..
*BB must jia you ok! although i noe it might be rather tough n tiring at first...but once u get hold of all the knowledge and procedures...u will be even faster than anyone over there...lols..i noe u can do it..love u lots! muackz...

went 6 stores within 2 days..rather tired but i thank god for the nice weather...although i was drenched here n dere...but i still love the cold feeling..lols...

been wanting to blog very long....but i just cant put myself in front of the com n type out wht my heart really wanna said....for once...i feel rather lost....passion and interest clashed with i duno....
i started to doubt...shld i let go of my ambition or shld i just continue...sumhw...reality are cruel...and audit is much more challenging n tiring than expected...when u gettin peanuts...ok..perhaps for my company...i seriously duno...i start askin myself...why didnt i take up a normal office job than running like a mad supplier store to store with heavy bag....

the terrible conflict at work between SN and KL make mi so hard to be human...i tried to avoid but well...i think sooner things will be worse...again i see different faces at work...SY suddenly act so big at work just becuz everyone is demoralised at work and wanting to quit...she acted as if she gonna get promoted somehw den MF..im speechless...just dun wanna waste time toking abt her...becuz she is very fake...n she like to argue until she win and all..which im not fancy abt...

met a few gd store managers today which advise me to change my job...and again...they told mi im strong that i was left in such a mess at first and handle all the situations myself until nw everything is ok n stable...seriously saying...i wish i could have someone to teach me things..but since after HH left..everyone are learning frm the basic and everyone have different ways and pt of views in checking...sumtime it get me so frustrated becuz everyone just wan their way and im like splitting into 2...

again...is all abt work...

i hope dinner quick quick can eat! i love my dad cooking...esp the soup! yum yum! *drools*
this is wht i alwaz look forward at hm after a tired day at work...thank god i have a loving family...with a loving,cute and adorable hubby beside me...bleh! :P

New Year and V-Day!

2008-03-01T03:38:00.006+08:00

Back back....been like a mth plus since i last blog...
hw is everyone? i guess pple cum in n see i never blog den long time nv cum in liao...
well hw was new year?

a new year ahead...i just pray for smooth and peaceful working life, lovelife and family life...
new year gotten quite bad for me this year...becuz new year eve i was admitted to hospital...
due to PRAWN n WANTON allergy...arghh..sadly...pple grow older nw...body cell start to react more to things that used to be mild allergy...it becum big allergy! i gotten 5 jabs...n there was one 1 jab i wouldnt forget...ON MY TUMMY! it was so painful...n it pain for abt 3 days...the fats on my tummy might had been hurt so bad this time...lols...i didnt recovered oli on the 4th day of new year..oh btw i discharge in the evening on new year eve..cuz i really wanna go hm n had dinner with my family...the allergy almost took my life..cuz i terrible swelling on my face...i gt disfigured then follow by swell at the throat,neck area and lungs...n worse is...it affected my nose...my nose just couldnt stop dripping water...for awhile i tot i just caught a flu...but it worse later..n my eye ball looks terrible...my eye white pop out n the black sunk in...

at that very moment...i just miss leit leit so bad...but she was in her JB hse..i just wanna tell her i love her...so i send a msg over...without informing her abt my condition...i just dun wan her to worry...after sending that msg...i told god...well...if u wanna take me away...im happy to leave with u...cuz tht time my mind is blank...n i am the most blissful person on earth...i got a great family...a wonderful lover and partner..n a stable career although seriously for nw i feel the pple at work are gettin confused and complicated...

new year story update ends...follow by VALENTINE DAY!

leit leit fetch mi from work...she went all the way to my workplace n stood outside the GIANT gate for like 1/2 an hr...with a bouquet of hand-made roses...I LOVE THE ROSES...every single one was made by her...her hardwork through the night...she did not slp...haha..*touched*
we had thai express with my siblings and their partners...it a great outing...i cant comment is really a very good one....but at least...everyone did turn up and made the sibling couple outing worked out well...thanks...we had ice cream after tht...n headed off hm....

to my love...thank you for everything...all the nags and scold..the whine and grumble...the cuddling n comforting...the pamperin n loving..haha..although i cant said i truly love dem all [nag/scold/grumble]...but i noe u meant well n love me lots...there is nthing im asking for...as long as u are with me...everything is beautiful...*muackz... hehe....i wanna grow old with u....:)

Crossroad

2008-01-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

well..im tryin...tryin real hard to blog as often as possible..
i guess i got nt much excuse to said...oh i cant blog becuz im too lazy to sign in blogger..
nw that my com is alive...thank to kevin...blogger automatic log mi in forever...
so one click...n i can type my new post..oh well...

it a really tired day..
4 days for crackin head..
1 days of roaming round singapore..
enuff for this week...im totally wear off...spare me..

i have this sudden tot..
this year is the year tht i shldnt sit dere n stare..n day dream...i must put all my dreams n hope in action soon...just in case i do not have enuff time to fulfill dem all...
this tot keep coming back to me...i must get everything done asap...just in case is too late...
nt tht im goin to die tml...but wht if i did...haha..who noe wht happen tomorrow...
i am 24 this year...arghh..wht a old age..
i was telling muifen..."ehh muifen u 24 hor?!"
den she stare at me with a blank face said.."nicole..is you la...im 25 already!"
for a second i was thinkin...isnt im 22 this year...ohh well...dream on...lols..

i am in a mix...
sumtime i blame myself for thinkin so much all in one time...

Choice 1: To change or not to change...

my job was indeed an exciting job...i met lotsa new pple..thru out this whole year...i grow..i see things in a wider scope...viewing risks,pros and cons a clearer picture...but...somehow...
this job bring me no where...but a resume of experience..
yes...i noe i noe...with experience it bring mi to a higher position...
but...my post had got me far enuff never to touch accounts and work as an external auditor...
becuz internal auditor hardly touch on figures..beside selling price,cost price...nos of stocks...and how much money u count..
i guess this job is almost to be able to be done for a O level kid..or perhaps secondary..
i love the atmosphere...the excitement when it come to goin new stores and doin reportin..cuz u got to plan..plan ahead of u...wht and how u wan things to work ur way...n indeed...this whole year...my plan goes so well...tht same time i finish my stores early..i ended roaming around seeing n shopping at malls or shops..n wake up later to go stores...im gettin lazy...or is it im too tired...or is it...i do not have tht passion anymore...
i love audit..becuz it close my personal value,interest and character...it matches mi so much tht thinkin abt giving up..it sadden me..*shake head*

i just send a stupid resume as an event executive..haha..wht was i thinkin for tht minute..ohh dear..lols..

Choice 2: To Study or not to...

I am planning to continue my study for my degree..in PSB academy...either Bachelor of Science (Honours) Accounting and Finance in University of London or Bachelor of Science (Honours) Business Studies by Loughborough University, UK. So if u were me...which one will u take up?
I got exemptions for University of London to complete my degree 8 modules in 2 years payin 8k..as for the other one i did not ask...lols..

My education shldnt end just here..i go as far as possible so that i will not regret in the future..last time when im working at je...i alwaz feel tht i shld follow my mum..she doesnt wan status..she just wan the cash...for the sake of the family..she is willing to do it...cuz she noes..the higher she climb...the risk of falling might be higher..but as for me...i dun wan to be just an assistant for life..i truly noe tht my life would be different from others becuz one day they get married..they will have a family..everyone feel is too early to said tht my life is forever this way...but see..i am already 24...my crooked life had lasted for almost 10 years...haha..my mum told me the other day abt my life n my future..i didnt wanna leave my job becuz i am not even a year old at my job..thus i choose to stay and when the time is right..i will leave..

everything is a tough choice...isnt it...lols...tht is life...life with choices...and once you choose the wrong choice...there might be no turning back...for a indecisive girl like me to make up my mind...is so damn hard...

*Miss

2008-01-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

well..it like almost 2 weeks already..
settling down n adapting back to my busy schedule...
but still i learn to relax and cope with the stress at work...

went shopping...move around this weekend..
got some new year clothes and a pair of shoe..yea! finally!

BB is now at goldcoast...enjoyin her holiday...relaxin herself..
miss her thou..i noe she miss me too...hahaha..
i will see her online on tue night or wed..yippee.. she will be back at adelaide...

well..seem like i have yet to mention abt my new year resolution...

1) Settle the Shell 7-11 business!
2) Slim down at least a 5kg! hahahaha...
3) Get rid of whtever stupid fats on my body...here n dere...
4) Save money for rainy days!
5) Save money to go Hongkong this year!
6) Settle down BB's living condition in sg!
7) Communicate more with BB n stop pushin her away...=x
8) Save money for Further study..

lols...guess is long enuff...
my wishing list oso kinda long...lols...

1) HP! S500i or tht pink colour fone w58oi
2) Double Deck Sofa bed..n a new dressing table
3) Get More RAM for my lappy
4) MP4
5) More Shoes and Formal Pants
6) Handbags!

oh sweet dream everyone...may all my wishes cum true...wahahahaha...

I am Back!

2008-01-05T15:35:00.000+08:00

long long time nv blog...
hws everyone? well..first of all,happy 2008! hope u have a prosperous year ahead! have lotsa money n good health to spend it...hehehe..

My australia trip was a long one..i reached sg on 2 jan..instead of 31st..i am still feeling pretty gong here...a little bit lag in time and environment..still tryin to adapt and get used to my old busy life..hahaha..

Happy graduation,my love..she definitely had did me proud being one of the student who was able to get a place for Honours which was chose by teacher..:) Bb is my leit zai! *wink* Congrats to Nat,Sim,Jean and Rita oso! i guess this time round i have more get together than previous 2 time with them..We went places of interest together and had dinner and had games session..thank for all the memorable memories...

well..I am so excited...excited with my new year! many challenges to take up and more tasks..im also excited with my about-to-change lifestyle! Bb is coming back...she gonna start her career here and im so excited to spend time with her in sg...we can go have dinner after work, go market together and move around in sg and many more! it gonna be so excited! i am counting down...so happy..i wan my life to have her forever! i wanna spent many precious moment with my adorable boy! kakakaka.. we can also have family gathering...nw the pic will be complete..cuz bb is here...

Australia was so hot..hot till i melt..imagine everywhere u go..b4 stepping out of the hse u put on one thick layer of sunscreen and then after 2 hr or less than u again top up with more sunscreen on ur face,hands,legs and neck..geez..thank god cuz the weather is dry u do not feel tht is oily n so on...if u forget abt puttin it, ur skin will have 2 tones at the end of the day and ur face and skin will peel...cuz is almost 36 degree to 40 degree everyday...

i did lotsa shopping i brought abt 30kg of stuffs back..i guess it make mi so heart pain for the cab fare i spent frm airport to home at 5 plus in the evening...i spent $30.80 frm airport to woodland..this is so crazy! hahaha..on my next trip to the airport fetchin BB...BB and i decided to have a gd meal at airport den head off after 8pm! hahaha..

alright stop here for nw..need to go fetch lili frm MRT station..more pics to be uploaded soon!

My Australia Adelaide Trip-Amended

2007-12-04T22:31:00.001+08:00

Reporting to my dearest bb!

Please take note of the following.... *AMENDED*

From:
SINGAPORE, SINGAPORE (SIN)
Departs:
11:50pm Fri, Dec 14

To:
ADELAIDE, AUSTRALIA (ADL)
Arrives:
9:05am Sat, Dec 15

Arrival Adelaide 9.05am! please dun be late or i am gonna ignore you and u slp on da floor!

received mel phone call today and my flight had been change..no longer on the waitlist..i finally get a sit on 14 dec! im prayin hard tht i can have a sit on 1 jan! *pray hard! pls let me count dwn with bb this year....
yeah...finish all my store visit...left 3 store reporting and 1 supermarket...will get it done tml hopefully..:p bb is at work...im so bloated...so full...kakakaka...*burp

Past entry...last week...
monday was totally crazy...
my lappy was down n worst my company com oso play mi out...
for a sudden i tot it was virus...but after scanning nothin is detected....
so grateful to kevin for the excellent planning to repair my lappy...
i didnt eat neither did i slp well...been starin at the ceiling for hours...was thinkin do i really need to retype all the stores reports...i guess my pray was answer..
tuesday morning...i reboot my whole com 2 times n waited for an hr to get everything started...
i managed to transfer all my files out from my com to my company server document tht oli i could access...im really thankful for all the miracle...for once i feel...i can really go on leave at ease...

speedy progress..left one store to clear for reporting for the month...hurray...n 7 stores to go include supermarket...it will be smooth n calm n peaceful one...will get everything settle nicely..

just a pretty short update...cuz nw...I SIMPLY CANT WAIT TO GO ON LONG LEAVE!!!!!
gotta go plan n pack my luggages...till i blog again...stay tune! muackzzzz...

BBQ Gathering...

2007-12-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

been very long since i last blog...
was so busy doin the month of november reportin...
nw still doin...almost done....
had a great weekend...had a bbq gathering on last thur as well..
had a great bdae celebration for my dad n mum...stay healthy and happy..:)

time for dinner...brb...:p
ok back...had unpolished rice.. n soup n veg

finally bb finish her exam..

n she got back her estimated grade for both subjects..well..i really hope she is happy with it and bb u are my smartest boy ar! muackz...

got a new pair of specs..

so i dun have to strain my eyes so bad...almost have sore eyes once a week nw...sian ar...

trim my hair...n then got a fridge...n den lili rebond her hair as well...boo booo...my ke ai de lili! haha...cant help but to pinch her cheek everyday...

13 more days...to aussiez...:D

斗牛要不要

2007-11-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

well..its xiaomei upcoming series...cant wait to see him and his gd basketball tactics..it only be out during November! *amended*
was busy..rushin with all those reporting...n nw tht reporting has almost come to an end for Oct..Nov begin..sob..n is gonna be a challenging month..im ready for the challenge..:) simply so excited..i gonna see her soon...alright time for bed..yawn..

Life without a Fridge!

2007-11-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

posting up...some reali wonderful neoprints..*nice*

is totally drivin me nuts...
when ur fridge break dwn and den u are so dead broke becuz u spent all da money on air tix...nw tht i wanna cook...i would need to cook sumtin that do depend on the fridge...well...tml lunch...macaroni soup...anyone fancy? hahaha..

reporting is due on wed...thurs is holiday! simply cant wait for the break..woohoo..

it been awhile since i blog...i was pretty lazy and busy tht why i hardly log in this days..i still prefer the old blogger becuz i dun have to keep typin my long email address and password becuz whenever i click on the web...im log in..nw is like so troublesome..

did i tell u...my company bus broke dwn today n fail to turn up..hw sian ar..on a monday..at the end,we took a cab...$30 coming into my pocket becuz handphone reimbursement had been approved...woohooo..

mum injure her leg some time ago at work..dad is feelin better this day...it a terrible year..i pray for gd health..smooth and peaceful life within my family..the yr gonna end soon..pls do not have any other health or safety issue..

i be on long leave too for half a mth at aust..yet to really plan my schedule on where to go and all...perhaps i do it beginning of dec...when bb finish her exam n she gt time to discuss with mi...we hardly haf heart to heart tok session these days becuz she is coping with her exam n i am rushin to complete my target..i am pretty safe tht i am on da right track..a pretty smooth path along to hit my target easily..but i guess without SH and qns boy..this won't be possible...perhaps? lols...
qns boy back to finance replacin KL..well..too early to comment on workin r/s...lols..but i guess im not tht hard to get along afterall so shld be nt an issue...

although bb and i doesn't haf much time as b4..but i noe is a short term thingy..n deep dwn...i noe she miss me as much n love mi still as much...hahaha! right? i miss her too..bleh..*muackz!

recently been catchin show like 公主小妹 and some hongkong short stories and stuffs like this...been playin theme hospital again..well..just feel like playin..lols..went for a swim on sat..it sorta de-stress..the feelin is good..

alright stop here for nw...i guess i pretty much need to keep an eye on my lunch and do some of my review of some reports..blah..blah...blah...update soon ya..at the mean time...miss me alright! hahaha..

MY LIFE IS 81% HAPPY...kakakaka

2007-10-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

[o]You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[o]You are in love
[o]You have your own room.
[o]You own a cell phone.
[o]You have an ipod/ mp3/mp4 player.
[o]Your parents are still married.
[o]You have more than 1 best friend.
[]There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 7

[o] You dress how you want to.
[] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[o] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[] You have never been beaten up.
[] You NEVER cry more than twice a month.
[o] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[] Your room is big enough for you. [not really..=x]

T 0 T A L: 3

TO T A L S O F A R: 10

[o] You have over 50 friends on friendster.
[ ] You have over 500 friends on friendster.
[ ] You have over 1000 friends on friendster.
[o] You have pictures on friendster.
[o] Your parents let you have a friendster.
[o] You get allowance. [once in awhile..:p]
[o] You collect something normal. [Little twin star quite normal right?]
[o] You look forward to going to school. [Quite..what abt half-half..]
[o] You don't wish you were someone else.
[o] You play a sport.
[o] You do something after school. [work!]

T 0 T A L: 9

T O T A L S O F A R: 19

[] You own a car.
[o] You usually don't fight with your mom. [hardly..these days..]
[] You are happy with your appearance
[] You have never gotten a failing grade in your life.
[] You have many friends.

T 0 T A L: 1

T O T A L S O F A R: 20

[o] You know what is going on in the world.
[o] You care about many people.
[o] You know more than one language.
[o] You have a screen name.
[o] You own a pet.
[o] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[] You dont have any enemies. [perhaps?!]
[o] You are a generally nice person.

T O T A L : 7

TOTAL OVERALL: 27

Count your numbers and multiply by 3.

Birthday Celebration @ Home

2007-10-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

Thank you lili n paul for the LTS Cake! Love it...

Thank you nana n SL for the blouse...

Thank you dad n mum for the dinner....

Thank you john for the hug...lol....

not forgetting...the gift from aussiez...take plane come de....bb gave mi for bdae...80GB Hard disk....

Birthday Celebration @ Company

2007-10-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

Thank you for the wonderful birthday card with lots of cuties little notes dere...n of cuz i gt to thank sharon for the plan,syahidah for the cake and muifen for the birthday song...lols..:)

Pre-Birthday Celebration

2007-10-19T01:17:00.000+08:00

my long awaiting dinner at RAMAN TEN...i love it! yumm yummm!
Lili and Paul brought me to choose n order my cake! POLAR ROYAL CHOCOLATE WITH LTS!

Lili and me waiting for our food...
Lili and me take 2!!
artistic shot by lili...paul drinkin the mango drink...lols
my fav blue soda with the little cherry...
my fav!!! i love this!! so much...so much! *drools*

had wonderful dinner after work..Lili brought me to my fav place to eat...cuz i couldnt help but keep buggin her...yeah!! brought a pair of shoe...so nice...so nice...will show ur next timeeee..the LTS cake is so nice...i am so happy with it...it just brighten up my tired day n lookin forward to my BIG DAY! kakakakaka...

i went to post office to collect my present from baby...is a parcel...so nicely wrap...i am so touched...i rush all the way after work from east to north just to get it...rush becuz the post office close early every single day...arghhh..n cant be transfer to other branchs...i shall open it on my birthday...12am sharp with baby...hehehe...:)

Hidden Secret...

2007-10-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

uploading some pics...

finally weekend is here...n finally i had a gd rest n im able to re-charge my energy...

last week was hectic..this week was wow! hahaha..had some time for myself...doin sumtin i like to do n so on....

wed is my bdae...is pretty simple this year...guess wishes will be coming in frm hp n online but den i guess no one will celebrate it with me this yr beside my family member...duno ever since when...frens are no longer an important role that played on my special day...i guess it pretty simple for i am too introvert or i do not know hw n when to sustain a long-term frenship...oh well..

paint my nails..

did my hair..was playin with it this few days...

i hid my long hair behind those short one...n resulting it to look just like i haf short hair...wonder of thick n long hair...lols...it was pretty awesome! lols...

my plan for this week...

KBOX! i noe there is like a promo on...n i wanna go...but lili do not wanna go...haix..

ADELAIDE EXHIBITION at marina square..another place i wanna go...i wanna see whether i can grab any info of any other wonderful place there...n hopefully i get some coupons or wht so ever n i can use it dere...

my trip to adelaide...

DEPARTING : 15 DEC 2007

ARRIVAL: 31 DEC OR 1 JAN 2008...

im excited for our reunion...i miss you...*hugs*

Here I am..

2007-10-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

been missing for a period of time...even i blog...but it was all lyrics tht tells u hw was i feeling at tht moment...

many things happen lately...
my dad gt admitted to hospital due to right lobar pheunomia *pardon me for any spelling error*
he discharged already...fetch him frm hospital...payin more attention to his needs nw..:)
cant believe i was so tired tht i wore the wrong shoe out...imagine...both shoe are black n of dfferent height due to the heels n different design..i simply wore it out the whole day without realising it...until i take it off...thank god i was wearin a pants n nt skirt..lols...

went abt 17 stores last mth..it was a break record thingy...becuz i simply just wanna clear all the store b4 goin on my long leave..but SH brought me sad news..saying..i would still need to go 6 stores during dec...i tot i could like cut dwn to abt 3...sian..qns boy was transfer bk to finance..new boss..new style..new amendment...adaptation goes on..all of just gt pretty settle dwn n working things out tgt..oh well..went sentosa alone! imagine..lols..reach dere abt 830am n walk along the path tht remind me of my bb...remember the last time we went dere...we had lotsa fun at dolphin lagoon n underwater world...n the beach...beautiful memories...n bb was sick tht day oso...she still running a fever..poor girl...tht is one of the sweetest thing she ever done..she did not wanna disappoint me..she made almost all my wishes cum true..bleh..

got my air con...had flu almost every morning...nt like those drip kind...is those jam in the nose one...booooo..time blink blink...is like 5 more days to my bdae...argh..old..hate it..hate it...cant imagine next yr im like..*count fingers and toes*

recently been hookin on quite alot of magazines...n den catchin 公主小妹 and 味分高下..n den hearin lotsa radio esp at work...cuz is so quiet..so almost everyone are one ear stuck with ear piece...lols..

goin into my deeper tots..actually nthin much for nw...pretty blank...just tht my luck lately quite bad...which i do nt noe why...the luck on me doesnt seem to shine..it fade..but i believe it will get better...perhaps once i wake up frm my slp tml...it shine again...lols...

goin to visit bb in dec...dates are almost confirm...just tht im on waitlist with more preferred flyin off n coming bk dates...i cant wait to eat korean bbq! walk rundle..chinatown...strawberry farm...i wanna spent time at coles and jay gee..cotton on! do u noe cotton on has one in wisma...i was so high can! it just make me so happy....

i cant wait to see her...but it bring abit of fear..although i see her thru webcam n we tok on da fone...but the feeling would be weird..well tht feel for the first day...n then after tht we are ok..i guess we are pretty used to it...is like our 5th time reunion or more than...lols...i still wanna go see koala..penguins...i guess i pretty miss da zoo...hohoho..but i dun miss her skol! remember those days i slp in da library..write notes durin her tuts n lects for her n she dozin off dere...n den..got preach becuz i waited for her to finish her test...n she came out with terrible face..poor girl...

is her last lap...i wanna her to do well..n cum bk with flying colours..she is alwaz a very smart n sensible girl...i guess i do not need to worry much..i will try nt to let her worry for me oso la...anyway i been a gd girl...slp,work,eat..life..i do not wanna routine life...tht y..at the moment...this job suits me..lols..

无赖

2007-10-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

我间中饮醉酒很喜欢自由
常犯错爱说谎但总会内疚
遇过很多的损友学到贪新厌旧
亦欠过很多女人

怕结婚只会守三分钟诺言
曾话过要戒烟但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远但对返工厌倦
自小不会打算

但是仍唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算坏我也不忍心偷偷作怪

没有跟的野种飘忽的命途
谁像你当我宝甚黱也做到
旧爱手中一疋布在这刻写句号
只想跟你终老

在地球唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算我也不忍心

还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我拼命捱
换转别个也忍心偏偏作怪

dad...he is important to mi....without him, i do nt know wht to do....please recover soon...

FIR-三个心愿

2007-09-30T14:19:00.000+08:00

我喜欢你的眼神温柔又危险
请不要戴上眼镜我会看不见
想要张开双手把你宝贝
想和你天天见面
想带你环游世界
我喜欢你爱逞强苯苯的笑脸
在心中抬头挺胸坚定的信念
这个辽阔世界不够完美
但有了你在我身边什么都很OK

第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领
哦~~~
为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪
好象有太多的事只能自己背
其实只要你说一句OK
现在就立刻马上变成你的superman
这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天
还有很久的那一天我也要有你陪
下一个心愿给你最好的自己

miss you dearly...muackz...

改变

2007-09-24T01:50:00.000+08:00

我虽是野草，可以任意的在恶劣的环境中生长.
有时会脆弱可是会勇敢面对...会熬过去...
但并不表示你要把我连根把起，
种在一个不属于我的地方啊!

脑子里一遍空白。真的需要去改变吗?

And So...

2007-09-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

i got my hair dye..
i got 5 stores backend to complete...
i cant sit long on a chair..it hurts...OUCH! damn!
im under medication becuz of my backbone..
im goin to vivocity and sentosa tml if i can wake up...=X
im installin sim 8-in 1 into my com n its takin hours!

n so...my baby is whining becuz she dun wan to do hmwk...*beat backside*

i am happy today although i feel pain...arghh..

任意門!

2007-09-13T01:44:00.000+08:00

this few week i been hearin this album! u gotta hear it..is nice...becuz the songs tht she sing is so challengin n beside tht every single song give u a new feel...not like..it goes again n again..some kind of albums pretty sound this way...when u are hearin the third song u already dun feel like listening anymore..but NO! this one is a no-no! it's really gd! the effort n hard work she had put in for her new album! gd job! lols..esp when u see her in da makin of her mv,任意門! the album had been upload to my immem...hohohoho!

okiez...let tok abt myself...
has nt been bloggin becuz was rather busy esp end of the mth these days...reportin n more reporting...n they keep changin this n tht so report had been review until alot of times n amendment had been made countless..alright...that is abt work...i was pretty amazed tht republic poly was like "WOW!" i guess is even better frm all the poly...in terms of building structure..when i was at the entrance i was sayin..this place is like so damn cool to be in...but well..np oso has its pro and cons la..i was thinkin every place tht i be goin next time, i shld take a pic n upload it here...guess it will be pretty cool huh...up to date...i already like visited more 50 stores..n is only 7-11 itself alright..exclude supermarkets..lols...

sumtime when u just keep tellin urself u cant do it...u wanna overcome it...i overcome this fear of mine...esp every time i go stores..i fear i cant finish on time..but i was pretty positive after awhile n said..."i will try!" hahaha..

had a terrible flu becuz i was caught in da rain the other day...n den follow by...my backache came bk n is even worst this time...the sharp pain when i sit dwn is so so much unbearable this time...u just do not wanna sit even if u are really tired..arghhh..i really can confirm this time round i did not hit on anything in particular like wht they said might be the safe, the basin and etc...it is either my company bus's seat or not it probably my bed...becuz i spent hours sittin on da bed facin my com after work...

hohohoho! nw is sep! still gt few more mths i can see hubby! she is strugglin real hard nw i noe...copin with all those reports..dun gif up,alright! :) i cant wait to see her...cant wait to attend her grad...cant wait to eat my korean BBQ! damn! why sg dun have ar?! !#!$@$^&* i oso wanna go see strawberry farm,koala,dolphins and shoppin at rundle and go chinatown with bb to buy grocery and visit coles and all! :)

k la...gotta go pack my stuffs n den look thru some docs b4 i start slpin in no time again..btw i just woke up not long after a long nap....yawn...cant help it...was so tired..=X

im in da long run with u...will u wanna run tgt with me hand in hand? *beam*

期待!

2007-09-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

waiting for rainie new album..i guess it gonna be a pretty gd album..:)

我好气她们。我忍。我累了。可是我不会逃避!

為了你我不后退!!

2007-09-01T17:12:00.000+08:00

越過山巔越過海水
越過一路充滿荊棘的冒險
我要去追我還要飛
我不害怕一路有多少的危險

在天亮之前做好準備
往前方的路能看得到終點
我不會后悔我很絕對
我要一個精彩的明天

為了你我不后退
我要看見成功慢慢實現
因為愛能讓夢想起飛

越過山巔越過海水
越過一路充滿荊棘的冒險
我要去追我還要飛
我不害怕一路有多少的危險

在天亮之前做好準備
往前方的路能看得到終點
我不會后悔我很絕對
我要一個精彩的明天

為了你我不后退
我要看見成功慢慢實現
因為愛能讓夢想起飛

每次我閉上雙眼
只想到你對我微笑的臉
我跑過了每條地平線

New blogskins!! i been doin it since ytd nite until i doze off in front of my com...
so hardworking huh! love it lots!
weekend is good...becuz i get to do some of my fav things!!
today is a happy day! :)
i been on diet...the foos i eat are just not keepin me alive..*whine*
i been singing at hm...the one n only phrase....
"為了你我不后退~~"

Must say!

2007-08-23T01:17:00.000+08:00

i look forward to every sun dl den every mon after dinner show...nw tht i had finally see the last epsiode...i feel so sad and just reali dun wish to be over...:(

the show was indeed a great one...by seeing oli the last epsiode it didnt hit me much...after seeing the one tht i yet to see...i cried like 5 times and 3 times is holdin bk tears...im not a crybaby just tht...is so sad n den sum part so touching...i seriously wanna praise mike and raine for the wonderful act...they can reali cry...seriously the show brought dem to another level in their acting...mike is gd! hahahaha...is a MUST WATCH show! catch it soon...:p

chest pain once again...den the giddy came..i feel the blood just suddenly flow so fast thru the stream of veins from the forehead to the back of my head...

after watching the show...i wish to be healthy...wan to be healthy...cuz there are so many pple tht love and care abt me...i must be strong...i must hang on...till i see bb again and begin another new chapter in my life...i look forward for tht day...n i hope everything goes well...:)

nitez everyone..back to my life...another new day begins tomorrow...:)

Cant Help

2007-08-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

cant help but to load this up....he is so cute dere can...lols...ok...or shld i said the wallpaper was well done...totally awesome...alright bb is watchin tht last epsiode of whywhy love..wan it?? PM me..lols...i will watch it tml...after my store...tml is another outing...roaming round shelves this time round...is too big...hypermarket...i dun scare u!! lols....

Healthy Week Begin

2007-08-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

im dying...so dying..
i love sweet drinks!! i love chocolate!! i love cookies!! i love chicken rice!!
is all to a no-no nw...i am so depress...becuz of tht weight increase make mi so ke lian...:(

i had boiled brocoli this morning..
i had few spoons of rice...lotsa veg..egg and chicken with no meat..is all bone can! :(
ytd i had 2 doughnut only..
been yawning the whole day...thank god didnt go store...or nt sure count wrongly..
dad is cookin like so gd food again...n i can only had some..:(
arghhhh...damn with the diet...is madness!!

I got 王傳一《換換愛+EP》!! So happy!!~ ok...at least that bright up my day...blehz! uploading the song up to my blog!! xiaomei~~~

bbbbbbbb!! i had a long day at work...bb n i been emailing here and there...my bb is so nonsense...she scare me!!! bully!!!~~ but i still love u la...kakakaka...k la...whine finish...time to bath den go eat dinner...haix...food...:(

My Beloved...

2007-08-20T02:38:00.000+08:00

decided to blog before go and sleep..
is rather late nw..yawn..
bb told me..i forgotten sumtin...then immediately i remembered..
our anniversary! haha..so sorry...BB! u oso forget ar..haha..
we were both so busy...tht we forgotten this every mth special day...but well..i feel...havin u...with u..everyday is a special day..is an anniversary day..kakaka..
so happy...we were tgt for this long...i am alwaz so pamper n love by u...although u are far away...but u alwaz care n worry for me over here...hehe..
few more mths...i can see u almost everyday le...so happy...
my next plan to aussiez is end of the yr...during xmas season..gotta start savin..=x
the medical checkup awaken mi..i truely noe the meaning of "u can grow fat easily and reduce fat hardly.." so sad...im puttin on so much weight n is invisible weight..my arms are nt big...my face is as chubby..my tummy perhaps alittle bit bigger..but nthin much liao ma...my thighs doesnt show any changes..arghh..so nw i am on diet...
tell me the fats...the sugar...i will then consider consumin the food...
i took my last packet of potato chips...n im gonna clear my goodies corner asap! the cookies are one of the major killer...lols...
my weekend was all abt work...i realise...is hard to give those store report to sharon in time becuz gosh...they are like so in a mess...ok la...time for bed... another busy week...

baby baby...wan an!! enjoy skol tml...i will miss u..hehehe...times spenting with bb is alwaz time tht i cherish the most...whether is gd or bad..hahaha.... love u!

Happy Belated Anniversary to my sweetest girl.. :p

dA Surprise!

2007-08-16T04:34:00.000+08:00

my little darling sent me sumtin! hahaha..
after a REALLY tired day at work..
my mum walked towards me and gave me a small parcel..
my mind is full of qns marks! cuz wondering who sent me things..n usually my bb send me things..she will tell me beforehand just in case the parcel went missing or wht..
notti bb! *beat backside* she kept so quiet abt it...it was a shocked...lols..the surprise was sweet and warm at heart..wht i love most was not the gift..but i still like it very much la...i like tht small little card and the perfume card! the almost-forgotten smell came back...the familar yet long time never smell the scent..my bb's perfume! i love her smell...*sniff*
she is so sweet...it melts my heart totally..i was moved n i cried..haha..becuz the missing was so bad and it was so sweet..i am so happy and contented..:)

the gift was not as impt..it was the thought tht count..i truly understand the meaning now..lalalala..i am still so happy abt the gift..my bb's perfume!! the very own unique smell of her...i wish to see her soon den can sniff all day long..hahahha..

i dreamt tht bb came back just to see me for a few days..i was smiling in my slp..hw sweet..hahhaa..tht was my nap after work n when bb is doing her hmwk at her desk..so guai right..my smart boy..jia you k...no matter wht...i will be there to be ur strongest pillar..muackz!

my little sweet darling.., i will see you soon...we both hang in dere! :)

Crabby Day

2007-08-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

the dinner was awful becuz we spent 150 eatin a terrible crab meal at AMK. the crab were weigh $60-70 bucks with no meat. we paid for the shell..n then the pple can argue with us said..they give us $6 off for the beehoon. oh my goodness! anyway the aunty was like so idert!! rude and no manner! dun go eat...the place is located opposite Mayflower Secondary..tht coffeeshop! terrible. i give -5 to them and 0 star for the food and bad manner staffs! we waited n then the food was disappointing..haix!

random pics..during tht 1 1/2 hrs wait while waiting for food to serve...

slow nvm but crab no meat...
service so bad...
and so EXPENSIVE can!

strongly recommend..upper thomson crab is nice..service is good..at least i look forward goin bk to the same store n wait for 1hr to get served and must queue summore...but is worth la...my mum was so upset..i had KFC after tht atrocious crab dinner..

nitez...time for bed..orh orh liao...*hug bb tight tight!

Goodie Corner!

2007-08-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

lalalala..
enjoyed the rest day..sadly tml is workin day..
but is all right cuz i touring singapore again..store audit..lols..
did my laundry..sweep my room...
my little goodie corner..hahaha..fully stocked up!
new skin on da way..:p

i got a nightmare..so scary...*hug bb tight tight*

the rainbow after the rain

2007-08-10T03:04:00.000+08:00

i cant deny..life can nv alwaz be tht smooth and alwaz goin uphill..
guess the argument with bb tht afternoon sumhw make us cried till our eyes are swollen and definitely resulted puffy eyes the next day..

sumhw it might oso rang the bell..tht...is a reminder for us to love and care for one another more and nt to take each other so much like a habit or granted..

been 2 years since then..things were often simple and sweet..i am alwaz lookin forward to our next meet..it usually take quite some time to see each other once again becuz we are far apart...like aust and sg..n den it goes we alwaz treasure all the times we had together..sumhw i envy pple who had their partners around but to think tht she will be back soon..sumhw comfort me n i would totally forget all those unbearable moments without her by my side..

i pretty wish times passes faster nw..cuz i really hope to see her soon..my tight workin schedule and the family outin tht is nt fixed for the end of yr caught me into a mix.

but i truly noe..havin her lovin me..i could go thru it all..n till i see her again and slp in her arms soundly..i wish that moment will be drawin near...

good night,my sweetest boy..*kiss forehead*

Different World

2007-08-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

had a long n nice slp for the day...
last week i visited majestic..den ytd visited daiso..
chinese culture and then japan culture...
i love the food i brought at majestic..
oh was sayin ytd i went je...
couldnt deny i actually put on quite abit of weight...
ever since i left je..i been putting on weight...lols..
3 more days..i be havin a 4 days break...so happy...lols..

k la...just a short note hw i spent my weekend..
well in fact im eatin so much becuz of my dad..
dad had lotsa break...for etc..breakfast den breakfast tea break den desert time den lunch time den tea break den dinner den supper n so on...
sure go fat la...lols..

i just wanna wish my precious bb a happy birthday..
HAPPY BIRRTHDAY TO BABY! I LOVE U!

hope u like the gift i posted..
i miss you..will see u soon...
must be guai n study hard k...
muackz..*hug*

random

2007-08-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

alright bloggin time...
i feel like writing dwn sumtin...
just some random thoughts..

my dept...
got 3 guys...
one guy is incapable
one guy is a question boy
one guy is a kan-chiong guy
they often drive me nuts...n nw they are drivin me nuts again...

incapable is gonna do store audit...which mean I AM DEAD
question boy forever got lotsa questions on his head...i am alwaz writin comprehension every time...but I AM GETTING USED TO IT...
kan-chiong guy would prefer qty n nt quality...and I AM SO FED UP WITH HIM...lols..

oh guys...nw u see...
i dun see any gd guys...
those are on tv...in dreams only...
wht i see...wht i hear...guys are damn idiotic and irritating fellow...

i finish all those review for the 2nd time..YES! which mean i get over this mth stuffs soon le...lookin forward to my AL..so happy yet the future seem blur again...
those pple around me...are they reali there to help me and hold me thru those difficult times or ??

mf had made me drift frm her...she let me see a different her...she was almost another person...i wanna tell someone...thru her eyes...i can see and tell...she like kan-chiong guy...she was almost throwin herself to him everytime she tok to him...she was envyin abt me havin to spent time with him...she was askin SN why this time round the reportin i was so involved and she said last time she totally nt involved when cum to reportin..she was almost tellin me hw she wanna show me she is nt that blur mf i noe...she wanna prove herself so bad...but wht the pt...i was nv dere to fight or compare with her...although i feel mad abt all those center attraction and stuffs...

but for nw...
i need to control my temper alittle...
im throwin temper at work so much and sumtime i get so worked up with wht they said...they dun seem to see the risk n stuffs...oh anything..

i cut my hair...
im gonna miss my tail...it was rather short..but to no one is nv short la...is i said short...lols...k la...pen down..
time for show...

although i didnt said...i hope u noe...
u meant alot to me...really alot...

this day

2007-07-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

i been totally an emo freak this day
i almost wanna bang the wall...
i almost wanna struggle myself...
is so not me...
i duno wht happen...

the character..
quick-tempered
emotional
moody
introvert as usual
and blah blah blah...

i cant believe tht i can cry whtever show tht cum my where which is a slight sad scene...it close to ridiculous..lols..
caught with a show lili intro...pretty good...the female lead which has the same horoscope sign as me...make mi understand myself abit more..the character indecisive had played quite an impt signal to me...is totally me! i am indecisive...n i hate pple to force me make decision...esp in love...so true..

i was busy last week...wrapping up stores...sharon n i had slowly developed a plesant and cooperative role this day...i felt better n i started to feel things different nw...i like the change..as for the remaining tht is happening this day...oh..dun ask me...is not in control..BEYOND CONTROL.

the feel was totally awful..
hope all the nonsense feel go away soon...esp being emotional...
when bb nt around...being emotional will only hurt myself even more..n i hate those feel..the whole situation got so tense...n bb started wonderin wht goin on with me...which i,myself do not noe either...

had a great time on sat. kbox! for like 10am to 7pm! is was awesome!! :)
sun shopping with the family was oso cool...
i FOUND my fav shanghai noodle tht oli aussiez sell...i found it at majestic! my fav..nw i do not need to buy like 3 pack at aussiez to last me for a year n i got to save on it....i can replenish it every nw n den...so happy! my biggest finding!!~~ :)

k time for laundry...i still got few report to review...booo booo..
another busy week...till i blog again...tc pple! :)

im happy for nw

2007-07-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

when i said tht..i mean it...truly..
been days since i last blog...
nt tht i had abandon the blog...just tht im tired to log in...
been havin a tired days at store since last week...
the weather was totally a challenge...i was feelin oh so gd...is soo cooling...lols
just finish my show...so nice...so nice..
been havin gd times bettin at neopets @food club with bb...i love playin the game with bb..at least we did spent sumtime doin sumtin tgt...
bb bday is cuming!!~~~
bb new n LAST sem started today!~~
hohohoho....

life been almost a smooth sail for me..no big waves neither hectic weather..
i guess im simply loving the feeling...:)
hahaha...

If Only

2007-07-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

if only things were like in da past..
hw nice could it be...
e smile remained...

happy anniversary.
love u. n is true.

Do you noe me?? haha!

2007-07-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

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no more should i anot

2007-07-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

my mind is clear as the clear blue sky...
the previous entry was a random thought tht i concluded a sucky week...lols..

i decided not to cut my hair
i decided not to quit my job...for wht sia..hahaha..
i decided not to fly over for the time being although i miss her dearly
i decided not to get lost from any place...lols..why must i? lols

this week was another hectic week...
next week will not be better either...
becuz of poh yee leaving..everything was all jumble up and must be done by this month..
hasnt reali doin much on my stores..was doin all sort of reporting and explaining..lols..
i value the knowledge my mum has taught..although last time she alwaz remind me n i just doesnt wanna listen to her...nw tht i need to explain to pple and remind dem frm doin...it was reali a cycle..lols

i was mad. pretty upset last week..
the inner voice told me so much tht i just wanna run away frm the fact tht such pple exist in my life AGAIN.
she told me i was one of the best tht learnt and cope with everything this fast..
she step me dwn by sayin..hey i think u got her wrong..tht not wht she meant. the other colleague b4 u was doin equally as gd as u...
is it a must to bring me dwn? is it a must to be tht frank?
i was just havin tht bit of motivation word frm her to hold me dere for a period of time.
her words was harsh. i felt so upset. tht she destroy my motivation power to keep me movin on..
but nw my thoughts has a better idea...i decided to take the challenge...

to face her..to deal with her..
to prove her words was all sort of crap...

she was almost incapable and slow.
i took the initative to help her thru and gave her strength when she couldnt face the present...
she wear a mask...a mask which tellin me tht she is so fake n had go all the way out to tell the whole world...she is slow,incapable,timid and so on....when she is nthin of this mentioned...hw terrible...

but once again..
i am not afraid...so do wht u can do...step me dwn for all u care...it will not affect me...n never...i mean again...:)

i am who i am nw...everytime i fall...i grew stronger than before...

Should I, Should I Not

2007-07-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

again this qns had came into my mind again...

shld i, shld i not...
cut my hair?
quit my job?
fly over?
get lost?
hahaha....

so sick n tired...
next week will be a better week???
well...well...we shall wait and seee...

weekend quick come!
i love spending time at home..:)

缺氧!

2007-07-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

春天慢慢一點點發芽
快樂開始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模樣
幸福開始組裝

夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

無法移動的夢想
就算沒有人鼓掌　我也不會受傷
不會稀釋的信仰
心穿越磚牆　在你的身旁

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的症狀
胸口微微的發燙
不知不覺又缺氧

must watch! 換換愛!! :)

settling down

2007-07-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

e week was stressful..but was rather settled dwn....
sum work had been delayed which make mi behind time alittle..
store visit had been pushed back...but well i seriously not gettin any ready to go for store...
was stupid to do all the supermarket for him becuz...the time was too little n so many things yet to find out...damn...
well...i shall do wht im ought to do...n nt being too helpful...sheesh..
unfair. the world had nv been fair...i shall slowly throw everything back to dem...

bb went MISSING for like 4-5 days online...
although she did update me her whereabouts...but her msgs are numbered and well..the whole day today im unable to reach her...she told me she head off to harbourtown which i went dere b4 too...but i could hardly recall...

i went for a crazy shopping ytd..
u wun wan to noe hw much i spend on BHG itself...
nicole ko pls bear in mind ur spending money principles..u need LIMIT.hahhaa...
i gave myself excuse for once in awhile spree..so is alright...wht shit..hahaha..

weekend ended fast...
i goin for sum briefing on new business on tue n fri...is so far...dots!
n there are pending jobs such as my remaining 6 stores n 2 supermarkets...arghh..
im angry...i shall clear the stores but mon if possible..is a MUST!

i wanna eat tong xin fen...i wanna eat salad...which one? which one?? hahaha...

好怀恋...缺氧的感觉

2007-06-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

春天慢慢一点点发芽
快乐开始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模样
幸福开始组装

夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长

想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的现象
胸口微微的发烫

想你有时会缺氧
脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧

夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长

想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧

无法移动的梦想
就算没有人鼓掌　我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰
心穿越砖墙　在你的身旁

想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
胸口微微的发烫
不知不觉又缺氧

dA misunderstanding?

2007-06-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

he shouted "shut up"
it stabbed thru my heart..
i felt so much wanna cry...
if caring was wrong..from nw on...
i won't bother abt u...
go do wht you like...lead ur own life...

she sms "dun take my things"
it upset me so deep...
i felt so much like a fool...
why did i allowed you to take my things n BORROWED for tht long?
u took my kindness for granted...

they mumbled and laughed...
they choose to keep mi left out...n kept whtever secret...
i asked...wht happened? mind to share?
their eyes lie to me while they looked at each other n said to me "NOTHING"

it was a setback.
for once they are who they are again...and i am who i was before...
my tears rolled.

Farewell n the unexpected

2007-06-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

e dinner at pagi sore...indonesian restaurant...
our office...with my boss n all my colleagues...

it been awhile i blog..haha...1 week once...faint..

ok this week was a sad n stressful week...but i pull thru it...

first was my boss farewell than follow by huihui one...

im sad...n nw tht everyone is prepare for the unexpected...i shld then oso face the whole things bravely and adapt to it whtever tht cum my way...was quite used to huihui way of doin things...nw sharon takin over...different style..attitude..i shall cope with it...i noe i can...:)

been watchin a show lately...finally ytd was last epsiode...which mean no show to watch liao...:( n raine show 1 week 1 epsiode...PIANGZ! damn slow ar....

had ite gatherin on thurs...saw some of ite classmates...LEE!~ i finally saw u...still as bubbly as ever n funny...haha...den i saw evon,jovee,elyn,simin n boon...unexpected was to saw boon there...wasnt prepared to see him...but finally...yes...after 2 plus 3 yrs...we met again...the silent was visible...it was so weird...cuz we were once very close fren n with nash,chris n jing as well...
the feelin was indeed funny n strange...but i enjoyed lee company...she still look da same n i like the army couple pics she took with her bf...so cute ar...haha...we took some pics tgt...lookin forward to take a closer look at it...

recently my chest felt very stuffy n i couldnt help but to keep sighin so the stuffy air could release out but like no use...wht wrong...n i felt abit chest pain...arghh..maybe too much duno wht food n blah....time to stop...cuz i am freakin bored...i cant imagine i can get change n went dwnstair n walk round just gettin oli a cup of drink n a newspaper for my dad...i need sumtin to release those weird weird stress or whtever it called...arghhh.....i wanna yell!! hahahaa....

yes! i finish all my 9 stores audit report at office...i guess i shldnt have cuz i am so bored nw...arghhh...sheesh...i felt so much like lin jin wen in tht show i watched...omg! hahaha...i was refering to the show 愛情新呼吸 tht raymond lin act...is nice la...hahaha..ciaozzz...

Morning Evening..

2007-06-17T16:57:00.000+08:00

had a dept gathering cum dinner on fri...
we oso had a mini excursion walkin from raffles place to city hall...we walk pass the parliament and the padang late at nite..lols...it was a long walk...n i am so tired...hahaha..
had dinner at an indo restaurant named Pagi Sore...located telok ayer...within those tall building..Pagi sore mean Morning evening...lols..so cute isnt it...
the food is nice..i love all the fish dishes..great! haha..will bring bb there one day..lalalala...:)
after tht we went swiss hotel to had a drink...i had English sunset...wht a nice name...lols..it is actually passion fruit plus strawberry syrup...lols...it quite nice...i oso like the martini classic..n muifen n sharon almost got drunk...they started seeing stars during boss farewell speech...it nice to had such gathering and i totally agree to wht boss said and it sad tht she left..

during the conversation...i started to think thru..there was one sentence tht boss said tht i must and will alwaz try to remind myself...

"as you work everyday...u face the same old pple everyday...it will definitely have conflicts and unhappiness...but pls dun take it personal...becuz u n her just had different thinking and ways of doing things tht causes the conflicts...it childish gettin so angry and mad abt conflicts on work matter...if only your could put one another in your own shoe and feel for the other...things will be better....after a slp,tml is a brand new day...view pple with a brand new eyes..."

bb alwaz said im a stupid fellow tht get bully all over..even mum said tht...but i dun find it tht way...haha..perhaps the world is cruel...the pple are fake but once again...boss had the same views as me...she forgive and forget with a big heart...i admire her..in my life...i see many many strong woman...woman tht outshine the rest and stay strong n calm most of the time and had the authority to speak and speak with senses..haha...i wish to be like dem...=X im learning...hahaha...

many adjustment i need to cope with...as one by one they leave...does tht mean a silent worker like me need to change abit here n dere? hahaha...im still as dependent to huihui...there are things tht im still unsure tht i wish i could clear all the doubts b4 she leave...but i think i cant...well...i will hang on...just as long as i still love my job...:)

moving to another topic...
didnt noe writing blog was no longer a personal thing anymore...it about you,me,them and even company as well...i dun see pple writing blog and complaining abt work and life got called up...hey FREEDOM OF SPEECH...the case was totally nonsense la...does it mean i cant take pictures with my frens at work becuz is a WORKPLACE...there is nothing confidential and private like revealing sales figures and such...and being grateful to pple and say thanks at blog mean u favour this person more n dun like the other one...n what abt saying there might be a risk of influencing pple to take side as well...OH WHT SHIT IS THT...didnt noe such company exist and stop employee from writing blog...it shld be put up on straits time...wht is this...i dun see xiaxue or whoever blog got called up to call dem to stop writing...blog is personal...is about saying our feelings and thoughts just like a diary...those pple who view can be grouped as 2 group...1 is the care and concern grp...the other is the ka-po grp...so this company is more like a ka-po grp den a care and concern of employee welfare grp...n hell with those pple who did tht to tht poor fren of mine...so wht if she had a blog...wan us to stop writing blog...pls add in a few more line in the contract of employment...
"EMPLOYEES ARE NOT ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN AND SPEAK ANYTHING ABOUT WORK..AND DO NOT REVEAL OFF DAYS AS WELL...AND MOST IMPORTANTLY IS EMPLOYEES THAT OWNS A BLOG AND HAD MENTION ABT THEIR WORKING LIFE IS AN OFFENCE. SO IS BEST NOT TO BLOG WORKING IN THIS COMPANY."

oh wht nonsense...where is all the laws...i am furious...imagine...when company control wht u speak and hw u feel...writing a diary and sharing about wonderful moments at a blog to friends was an offence...haix...wht else more to said...the city goin way to fast...writing blog is one way to keep memories...should i oso start deleting my thank you speech...later pple feel im takin sides and favourtism..totally crap...

daddy day today...
hope dad stay healthy alwaz...:)

YES! My Graduation Day!

2007-06-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

before the graduation...just done with e make-up..:)
after the graduation...with my new pyjamas...:)
lili took using her hp!
THIS IS STILL THE BEST THING EVER! baby had attended my graduation ceremony on the web...she gave me a pleasant surprise...i thought she couldnt make it in time to view from the webcast...so cool...see closer...got my name there summore! haha...love you,dear! :)
FINALLY....
the siblings...
sistas ever!
so in love...hahaha...i have the best sistas ever...
my mum...and the popular working experiences thru-out the 3 yrs here..MEMORIES!
my dad...he had waited for this day for very long..
my parents and nana n meee....
my parents and me...thank you for everything...
nana and me on our graduation day...
the stage...
hahaha..
nana and me...:)
my family...my strongest pillar...without dem...this event will not ever mark my life..is true...
the siblings...love dem all...

there is so many pple i wanna said thank you to....let me list dem dwn...
from my ite till poly....

my ite kakis...
F4 that include jing,nash,chris and boon...who never fail to be there to make me smile...n support me all da way...
Lee and evon,baoling...who alwaz help me in skol n pei me thru those terrible assignments date...i miss those learning days with ur...
steph...one of my dearest girl who lend me a shoulder to cry no matter wht happen...
anna and jiahui..thank you so much...
n all the ITE teachers...their patience n encouragement...n clear all my doubts when im in a fix.
there is still many many more...thank you...:)

my poly mates....
TB17,TB42...blur blur grp that was with me thru-out the 2 years...
my HR frens..liling,jenna,dennis,jiahui and many more...
perhaps sumtin that i might be abit regret that things gone bad between me and weili..if only time could turn back...i wish we could be just gd frens as ever..but still i wish you da best in everything u do....

my JE-kakis...
BRYAN! u are top in da list...u never fail to help me thru many big and small problem...a thank you would never be enuff for you...hahaha...still i dun mind more thank you to said to u the near coming future...hahaha...
junyi and kevin...thank you so much for the cooperative and understanding in my stand...i noe many atimes...ur did spare a thought for me just like a spare a thought for your to turn up for work...but i seriously can tell u guys...ur are the best team-mates ever...thank you!
zhenlin...thank you so much for those laughter and jokes that so many atimes when im seriously troubled and upset...ur jokes did cheer me up...u been a wonderful fren..thank you...

je was a place i learn and grow and have fun...i wanna thank almost all the pple there cuz whenever im in need..they nv fail to turn me dwn...n help me all the way..thank you...

i oso wanna said thanks to my family...they had been thru all the ups and dwns in my life....esp my mum..thank you for those advice and encouragement...everytime i go to another new stage of my life...u nv fail to smile and said..."is ok..is alright...dun worry..."
n my dad that had waited for my graduation day to come...sorry for all those notti and irresponsible acts that i did in the past with the whole lot of frens...i truly noe i hurt u the most...
i oso wanna thank aunty diana n her family tht did their best to put a stop to my awful n messy life in the past...without dem...maybe..maybe..i duno...

i oso wanna thank my precious bb that stick with me thru the whole 2 and half yrs with me...those nights that i cry and throw temper all over that i said i wanna give up..she calm me dwn and comfort me and said we start all over again...it be just fine and soon is over...yes...blink blink...is all over...no more lecture notes and project...no more 9am lesson but 720 company bus! :( boo booo...i truly meant wht i said...i wish i can have u by my side to go thru every single stage of my life frm nw...would u marry me? hahaha...wait long oso dun have...i den dun wan to marry u...till u get me my KUMA-KUMA! hahaha..i love u,bb! muackz...gd luck for ur coming papers..i be here..no matter wht...

pasts shld alwaz remain as past but indeed there are pple tht im grateful that they did not pester or look for me ever and pple that had abandon me for my own gd so that this day would come..whether or not is true..it doesnt matter anymore...but still im grateful to you and thanks..:)

my upcoming resolution...
to grab a degree when my family financial are more stable and till i wanna face books and projects again...but i dun mind gettin all sort of audit cert at the mean time...im totally in to audit...my ite ambition...wooh...it came true...i thank god for all the things that happen before and now...god will make a way...:)

well...since like im finish with my thank you speech...haha..
ok...time to take a rest n prepare my store audit tml...ciaoz...
cheersss~~~

More views...

2007-06-10T13:10:00.000+08:00

was bored so hop on to u-tube n see mvs and blah..

换换爱!

2007-06-09T17:00:00.000+08:00

u gotta catch it...now on the web can find 1st episode oli...e 1st epsiode is nice! haha...is a love story featurin raine and XIAO MEI n of cuz "yuan yi" oso!! xiao mei is so cool as usual n so cute...wahaha..i like the show done by this couple of pple...they got sparks n chemistry...haha..just like devil beside me..:)

im therefore oso looking forward to 歲月風雲 by my fav artist above...that few n of cuz raymond lam...lols..is 60 episode! well..i must do some cleaning to my com so tht the whole show is perfectly fit into my hard disk...xin ku le,hard disk...lols....

enuff of tv shows entry...
let tok abt me,myself n i....

im in a lost horizon tht pple need to swim into my world to look for me...haha..
last week was pretty relaxing...manage to slack thru the days...becuz huihui had done my review...
wasnt feelin too gd abt muifen..perhaps i think too much as usual...but a 2nd thought...i had treat everyone like a very simple-minded individual n wherever i think tht way...pple gave me shockin surprises...sumhw things start to becum much clearer as unexpected n i just have to accept the fact tht pple are as such...learn to accept,shut up n make no comment would be the best...as usual...huihui is leavin in abt 1 week time..i am so nt in a mood becuz sharon is takin over n chee boon got lotsa problem with us...n new pple are cumin in...imagine a 1 yr older person 24 yrs old as my BOSS. ha..tht is fate...hopefully janet dun get tht NTU girl employ or i be so demoralise n she seem so proud..oh my...more unexpected things coming up this coming week...stay tune....haix...it might be not a place to gain anymore experiences and learn anymore new things cuz there will be totally nobody teachin mi anythin new anymore...hw nice hor...but i hate it! cuz tht mean i wun progress...i noe shit n nthin...everyone is goin nt even one tht would bother to teach us anymore new stuffs...so wht if i like my job...perhaps...i reali need to find the true meanin myself n start from zero...n learn things thru the hard way from nw...gd luck. i am not sad...neither am i angry...totally speechless...totally gettin annoyed with EVERYTHING...well but i be totally fine...cuz i noe life has ups n dwns..so i will cope with it n cope with dem...heck u..spot-checkin me whether i bring wk bk hm to do...heck u...if u alwaz use me wantin me to accompany u here n dere n helpin u to do things...n when i needed help...u DUN EVEN PICK UP MY CALL n not even an explanation! hw nice....FRIEND! all my friends are this way...not becuz i dun treat dem gd...it all landed tht way cuz i overly pamper dem like sistas...so many example...i break dwn n weep becuz of all this friends....ha....

GRADUATION DAY on Monday! dun look forward to go bk to skol...dun look forward to see any of pple dere...i wun be happy cuz im fakin my way dere...n let see...wht happen if those familar face spots me...nthin will change...cuz they had already becum passer-by in my life...but im glad my parents are goin...:)

blog next time...shall i go for a nap follow my salad for dinner...damn the throat....there is sumtin stuck dere...even swallowin water can feel something pokin dere...so wht can tt be..n wht can i do...my mum force me swallow rice..nthin happen...perhaps...i shld try puttin a bowl on my head n use a chopstick to hit on dat bowl n say..."QUICK, GO DOWN! QUICK, GO DOWN!" haha...

Slpy Sickness

2007-06-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

added song to my blog and frenster profile..it is all raymond lam song..so nice...haha..i wanted to put 领会 but i couldnt find the link..will do advanced search when im free...im falling so in love with his songs..haha..been slping so much this weekend...until my shoulder ache..my neck pain and my back ache..haha..im gettin old..duno wht wrong with me..so tired..lols..

some random pics...ytd dinner at sunplaza..:)

LTS hp chain..too bored...so took a pic of the little one..hehe
Lili and paul jap set meal..salmon...OMEGA 3!! haha..i hate watermelon! yucks!!
munch munch..yum yum...
nana n SL...stare at Lili..
dad had told my mum a funny joke resulting..a scene like this..:)
da mist..haha
lying on lili shoulder awaiting for my 1 cheese,1 egg prata! haha..

More pics...

2007-06-02T10:22:00.000+08:00

in the company bus...on my way back home waiting for other colleagues to board so the bus can depart..my company main building door..seeee...lols

the main dept door tht write on the side panel of the glass door...internal audit..so cool...
my place...with my name...:p
my chair with my fav black cushion...bought from neighbour next door...IKEA. haha
my messy desk...so hardworkin ar..haha..
my standin up view..haha...

raymond lam sing gd canto song but was wondering why he dun have his own album...so sad..haix...ok time to get change...bring my dad go see doc...mum suggest us to bring him to NUH instead of tan tock seng...so we need a refer letter frm the poly...

stupid nose is killing me..the thick n stubborn mucus..arghh..thank god no running nose...but so uncomfortable ar...booo booo...

bb promise to wake up at 8am!! nw is 12pm le...i mean her aussiez time...she still slpin like a lazy pig..gettin more n more worse...*beat backside* hehe...i love u...wait for me cum hm...pls do ur reading and finish up ur tuts..boo boo..muackz...:)

林峰!!

2007-06-01T03:26:00.000+08:00

The Story

2007-05-31T18:23:00.000+08:00

random pics...
myself and my wardrobe with the ladybird deco as backdrop..
e handmade water lilies...at my fav temple..:)
after a long day...we headed off to the temple to have a wonderful vesak day gathering...

im back to blog after few weeks..was busy..
1 whole week away from office..doin store audit..tired but is enjoyin the whole process..
SHE album was a wow..i love wu yue tian mv..its sweet..haha..

let me update some stuffs goin on in my life...
a big management movement..re-structurin and so on goin in my internal audit dept..but it did not affect my job role at the moment..all the heads are leavin..takin over are pple with no experiences of wht the heads are doin..chasing after time everyday to learn as much n noe as much b4 they leave or it might becum a major havoc and chaotic in the dept..well i seriously dun bother much for nw already..i do my best and do my parts..others just close one eye..thanks muifen for the console the other day..it truly touches my heart for no one understand wht im goin thru for nw..but hope it will soon be over..yes..it will...it must..i look forward for a new life in the dept..a new energy tht pushes us movin ahead..at the mean time muifen n i will cling onto each other tight till they do us part...haha..

dad feelin better this day but suddenly today he complain he quite breathless after mum went back work..his medicine soon goin to finish le...need to replenish..haix..i will do anythin to prolong his life..i wish he could enjoy his retire life..

john gettin out of hand lately..so hurtin tht things turn tht bad..he argue with all of us at hm n fightin for rights and claim we are all wrong and bad to him..so wht if i went to ite n make my way to poly..tht doesnt mean i dun earn ur respects as ur sis..tellin him abt "what if" scenerio he asked mi to shut up..the importance of scoring in Os can change one individual life...it changed me..it definitely changed many pple..if i didnt went to somewhere which i often thought i dun belong there..where everyone claim it the end..i would not noe friends tht are probably the best in my entire life and foundation of my studies which bring me to where i am nw..i am thankful tht i been there..to discover myself inspiration and my future career...well...tht doesnt mean he gt to follow the path i been thru cuz he is a man..but well he seriously dun get our point and our concern...he doesnt wanna listen to us...god bless him..im tired to go on goin against him n fightin with him..we care therefore we nag n ask if u have did ur work...n askin why u are alwaz hooked on the net..if is my fault to have the net...i will end it sumhw..perhaps i will...

to be continued...

back at blog...nw is 2am in da morning...goin to bed...yawn..didnt manage to do 3 steps and 1 bow cuz very long Q this yr due to the gd weather...it was so pack till we were so tired to continue to stay on...but i still simply love the temple..a temple where i felt safe and peaceful...n most impt is the books tht i brought home tht continue to enrich my life and enlighten mi...simply love readin the books i brought hm..hehe..but i still pray and ask for nthin except for my dad's health..i noe my prayer will be answer sumhw...cuz my dad is a gd man..before i go...let mi upload sum random pics...till i blog again...lols...nitez..:)

random pics of my new office

2007-05-20T03:00:00.000+08:00

my very own place..my sit at my new office,WRS.
its way bigger than my old office..
i enjoy the spacious...n my dept is so cosy n cool...lols..
neighbour next door...muifen!! haha...i will knock her panel frequent! haha..
after the unpackin n all...took a pic of myself..at my sit..boooo

more pics up soon...till i go bk next week cuz i be doin store audit so nt at office..lols..i show u the more spacious area next time..lols..cuz the pics still make it like very cramp leh..lols

some pics after a gd slp...for bb! haha..

天使

2007-05-19T18:32:00.001+08:00

你就是我的天使保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎么样只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖给我力量

像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂

a song for my love...bb i love u..hope u have enjoy ur 23th mth anniversary with me!! hehe..
looking forward to our 2 years..*so excited* hahaa...muackz..

packin office random pics.

2007-05-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

had our last lunch at our old office...peace centre.. great lunch..:)
ah mui fen and me...greatest partner for store audit...haha...
syahidah,sharon,muifen and me...the lunch kakis...includin huihui oso...
huihui,my audit dept boss,janet,sharon,muifen n me...

been busy packin...everything are all in ctns already...total 30 ctns and many many hand carry to and fro trips from peace centre and tampines giant..boo boo...was all so tired fixin,carryin,packing...but had lotsa laughter and fun..best team ever but sadly huihui and my boss,janet will be leavin soon...

schedule for the move...
tml...movers will come n load all ctns n send over by noon...
mi n muifen will be in the office till they get the pc pack in ctns and den after tht take cab over...n unpack stuffs there...hopefully we get it all done and sat we dun need to go bk la..i gettin to hate to take 168 frm woodlands to giant cuz no chance of gettin a sit...thank god soon i will have company bus n thank god i wun be enterin the new office for the next week..goin all around sg to do audit check...check n check...haha..time to finish up my noodle n had a gd bath n jump straight to bed...

bb gd luck for ur presentation and happy anniversary...1 yr and 11 mths!! next mth is our 2 year anniversary lehh...hehe..so so happy..im fortunate tht i have u...alwaz lovin me so dearly...thank you..*lotsa hugs*

The Advice

2007-05-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

i had a wonderful mother day nt becuz my mum wasnt around was becuz the previous nite we had a gd tok abt my life, my character, my work and lots...just when i felt so much of givin up...she show me a motivation poster..n read to mi...it gave me strength..im grateful i alwaz had my mum to stand by me...on my first day of work at dairy farm...she sang a song abt motivation with my name in it..haha..im thankful for whtever i had..n maybe becuz of the words and the love...i sorta seen thru lots and reflects many abt myself..time to be more sensible nw..for my dad is unwell and my mum gettin so tired n stressed up..i did housework durin weekend n cook for the family..im glad tht dad love my black bean,pig tail soup..it indeed yummlicious..lols..many thoughts came in and mum pointed out whtever i went wrong..although it simply hard to correct those errors on my well-being..but i will try my best..

i enjoyed working with muifen and huihui..they are great and wonderful pple..filled with lotsa patience and understanding..almost died today becuz one of the store JB documents went missing..thank god it was found in the previous batch of sending to JB..wooh..didnt wear my lucky white watch today so i sorta felt so uncomfortable..i thank god tht nthin worse did occur..i will never abandon my watch anymore..the watch was indeed a strong tool of luck for feng shui said..white is my this yr lucky colour..haha..i much into believing feng shui..

nw tht i left nthing much to do at work..tml on will be preparing to pack..movin this fri..sat and sun need to go bk WRS..WRS is my new company building name..which mean weekend break are almost burn off and follow up is continously 7 days of store audit at 14 7-11 stores cum supermarkets..fainting of cuz..but hope it go smoothly with nt much problem ar!!

resolving my dream ytd..i dreamt abt wind chime and a man..which is rather old and had cross dress..i could remember so clearly tht he killed someone in the dream at my hse opposite car park..tht is so scary..seldom dreams seem tht clear..

had reserved my graduation robe..attendin graduation ceremony on 11 june..:)

i miss my sweetheart..lookin forward to my next aussiez trip which i have yet to schedule due to work...tot of goin dere twice..but still thinkin hard..bb must jia you..do well for ur coming exam..i noe u can do well..i have faith in u...dun let me dwn..n conquer crazy dozin off habit..boooo...i miss u dearly..just wanna hug u real tight everytime i felt weak deep within...i noe u will be there alwaz for me..:)

Stay calm...

2007-05-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

a pic after work..just reach hm nt long..

my company movin..movin to somewhere bigger...
nw tht level 4 and level 6 had move..n payroll at my level..me level 7 movin tml..im excited abt the movin...although is far but i guess i will have abit more space of my own n more freedom rather than havin huihui sittin beside me n so near to me...lols..

days pass by so fast..so fast tht im already workin dere for like a mth plus..n im gettin use to have my cup of milo for breakfast n sumtin to eat b4 startin my day...haha..breakfast is impt but why impt i oso duno...wahhaa..i eat becuz i need energy to stay focus..lols...i shall try to stay focus cuz im tokin to bb at msn,webcam with bb...n lalalala...

i sorta noe my colleagues better n gettin aware abt my surroudin n being alert of wht goin on is so impt..my colleagues are nice just tht im abit too quiet..lols..poh yee is abit straight forward and can be a very fierce lady..*worried* but i believe as long as i be good n do my work properly i will nt have much problem ba..i love my job scope..the things im findin out..the curiousity n haha..the importance and the respect of being this role is sooo sooo cool...some time i need to be in charge of verifyin lucky draws and even tender for all business and other other more...my signature has becum an important proof to documentation..haha..so nw u noe abit of my job...i oso audit business tht can be in a mess n i need to speak to dem n ask dem to give me answer to this n that..nw tht my ambition of being an auditor had cum true...i guess my next goal is to be a truly good and independent party tht helps to prevent frauds and error..lols..

let tok abit abt my life..i cant comment much abt my life..cuz things gettin out of hand this day...my dad health..complaining breathless even slpin n bb emo feelin and the stress tht goin dwn on me..i hope i quickly move to my new company becuz of the movin..i need to send docs to where it belong..i need to audit check all by tue..nw tht im done with 7-11..supermarket is up next..my de tian ar..i was rushin off wht i can do today...my aim was to clear all 7-11 today..n i did it..wooohh..n shoulder had commence war and my wisdom tooth had start pokin me since day 3..was on soft food these day and few days been tastin little of the food n swallowin almost all the food without breakin it dwn..booo..i felt so upset...wastin food this way...n did i tell u...my mum make good dumplings..damn nice!! she taught me some skills..im gonna make for bb when i see her...:)

felt helpless toward my dad..i need to do sumti to improve his health but wht thing can i do? arghhh..there is no way he can learnt taiji...no way he can walk here n dere...no way to even speak often...his lung capacity is 40%..so wht more can i do..haix..damn...why the side effects of smokin come into his life....i will do anythin to give him a long life and let him enjoy the fruits of his achievement..i pray to god so hard tht nv to take him away..i cant take the blow..

Missing BB

2007-05-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

been awhile i last blog...definitely recovered and felt better but my appetite wasnt tht gd these day...boo boo..
lately been missin bb alot..alot..so much tht i wanted to fly over to see her..even if is a day..few hrs oso can..:)
been enjoyin life these days..i love my family..my bb..everyone around..hehe...

been catchin a new series...nt bad the show.. hk currently showing...:)

i looking forward to SHE new album...kakaka...one of my current fav...

job was ok..moving soon...so far..but better environment to work la...:)
kk..time to zzz soonnn...

to my baby...
pls be gd..study hard..must jia you ohhh..miss u n love u more n more each n every day...i miss ur presence..i look forward our next zooo trip...hehe...:p

In the Midst of death...

2007-04-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

finally blog..but a very short entry..
i still felt weak as ever..still felt pain in the tummy and chest..

i went into A&E ytd midnight after my whole body felt seriosuly weak and breathless and fever didnt decrease after 5 days..i was immediately been put on drip. ha..weakling..i was rather in pain and tears just keep rolling..if oli god take me away hw nice would tht be..haha..okok..tokin nonsense..it almost to an extent tht it was a "serve me right" situation..i didnt listen to anyone's advice and had went out on fri and then on sun for a short while..been eatin more medicines than ever..been coughin n hurtin my tummy so much..i wan to stop the cough but i dislike the cough syrup..sobbbb..been spenting so much money on doctors..huihui is helpin me to claim frm company..i miss work..i wanna drink sumtin sour..my mouth is bitter..plain porridge with cai xin is killing me..hahaha...

the drip process was especially painful..the blood was gushin out like nobody business and it stain my drip's tubes and the bed..doctor commented i am lack of potassium..time for some rest...let me post up some pics tht bb been yearning for some time..the kbox get together with my colleagues..

it was rather blur...my colleague,syahidah bdae..:)
muifen and me..
angeline,me,muifen and huihui..
all of us...except syahidah n poh yee cuz they were sick..

bb im sorry to make u worry...i be a gd girl frm nw on..*pull ear*

Honey~

2007-04-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

萧亚轩 - Honey Honey Honey

你在我耳边唱歌
我乖乖听钢琴声
时间仿佛停止了
在这一刻
抱着你永不放手
看着你眼尾笑纹
迷迷的眼神让我心动了
握着你粗粗的手像个小女人
厚厚的肩膀靠着
躺在你身边不停傻笑着
嘟嘟的嘴角让我好想亲吻
你在我耳边唱歌
我乖乖听钢琴声
时间仿佛停止了在这一刻
抱着你永不放手
做我的honey honey honey
放在你的心里
下半个世纪我用分分秒秒好好爱你
喔 honey honey honey
躲进你的怀里
我要我们腻在一起
这样一直甜下去

看着你眼尾笑纹
迷迷的眼神让我心动了
握着你粗粗的手像个小女人
厚厚的肩膀靠着
躺在你身边不停傻笑着
嘟嘟的嘴角让我好想亲吻
你在我耳边唱歌
我乖乖听钢琴声
时间仿佛停止了
在这一刻
抱着你永不放手
做我的honey honey honey
放在你的心里
下半个世纪我用分分秒秒好好爱你
喔 honey honey honey
躲进你的怀里
我要我们腻在一起
这样一直甜下去
oh yeh oh honey
做我的honey honey honey
放在你的心里
下半个世纪我用分分秒秒好好爱你
喔 honey honey honey
躲进你的怀里
我要我们腻在一起
这样一直甜下去
honey honey honey
放在你的心里
下半个世纪我用分分秒秒好好爱你
喔 honey honey honey
躲进你的怀里
我要我们腻在一起
这样一直甜下去

The Love

2007-04-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

ahwile awhile...i nv been bloggin for awhile...was lazy n abit tired these days...tht y...i managed to pull thru this week..even muifen agree tht this week is so tiring perhaps it becuz of the weather..lalalala...let me briefly update wht happen this week..

did sum store audit..den spent time at office doin backend and then ya..the BIG MOVE briefing..i look forward to my new office..my new workstation but i detest the dust..it is new tht y i super dusty..sob sob..boss show us the layout n new sitting arranging..im quite ok where i am..so yupps..cant imagine the cleaning tht im gonna do next mth for the move..aiya..stupid..i look forward for shoppin at giant..bringin my dad to giant to grab whtever he gonna cook for me and of cuz sum fav food of his and my LTS pyjamas! i saw it..i saw it...no one gonna stop!! :p

after a conversation with muifen...i felt im reali fortunate and bliss...let me list sum of the stuffs why i felt this way...

1)every morning..my baby will call me when she on her way to skol and im on my way to work..she will tok to me n encourage me n give me strength to hang on dere...:)

2) afternoon she will have a msg send to me n tell me she is back hm n wht she gonna do next and hw much she miss me...haha..n sumtime she will tell me wht happen during her day at skol...

3) after work...once i board the train and i have settle dwn...i take out my hp n i will see 2 long msg from her telling me she goin for her nap or rushing her skol work..

4)after reaching hm n i bath and everything..i logged into msn..i will see my bb there telling me hw much she had done in her work and tell me she cook some yummy food without me...:(

5)after tht...we will have sum time alone doin my work n her work...den we skype b4 we slp...she will ask me wht time i need to wake up and wht she gonna do for the day tml...

i am so bliss..pls dun get it wrong...nv had i force her to tell me where she is and wht she do..this 1 yr 10 mths r/s i have nv worry abt her being unfaithful and blah blah...nv will i lose confidence in her and my love for her...becuz is her...tht make her so special...nthin can compare hw much i cherish n love her although sumtime im abit lost of words to describe my feelings for her...

let me tell u a secret...my mum just told me after our dinner n we were chatting away...
she told me when i was 4 yrs old..i still refuse to speak..oh god..haha..well..i have sum memories on tht..i was rather a quiet chap during my childhood and lili is way to noisy alwaz crying!! haha...

alright time for bed...but let me post sum pics tht my bb might be interested to see...haha..

me before sleep...:)
mickey zai...he gt a nice hair cut..haha..i got him his fav bone while doin store audit at yishun..
he and his tongue...lili is the culprit for such behaviour...she taught him!!
my office..my desk..abit messy...well..i will see this like less than a mth..we are moving!!~
still papers..and lotsa papers..lols...
water...i cant live without it everyday nw..:))

random pics

2007-04-13T07:43:00.000+08:00

bb i miss you alot...muackz..
off to work...booo..:)

us

2007-04-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

i alwaz love u...muackz..leit leit is my baobei..:)

Prawn Fishing

2007-04-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

zhenlin won the prawn fishing battle..she caught the biggest prawn...lols..
jianyong and wang jie had a gd uncle chattin all the way..they didnt reali did much fishing than the PRO at the back of dem...he caught 2..lols..hate u!! u scare all my prawns~
b4 bbq..i ask zhenlin does prawn actually wee? lols..it quite cruel the process but bryan did the poking..ouch. lols
the 3 gd work kakis...:)

yeaterday had a small gathering with je kakis..gt suwei,wang jie,jianyong,zhenlin and bryan...had a great time..tokin and laughing..and i can tell u tht prawn fishing is tough..lols..i just dun get it..why i didnt catch any? :(

we went to shop around the ntuc at jp to grab lotsa tibits..i ate my chessy prawn..everyone was tired after tht...we went hm abt 11. lols..but it fun having everyone tgt..spendin time rottin and keeping scolding the prawns tht do not wanna eat our bait. haha..

in fact i miss everyone at je..guess will visit dem once i got settle dwn at my new workplace..my new wk is indeed fun..definitely sumtin i like to do and wish to do..the process might be abit tough but i will hang on dere..i got used to slping early and waking up early...haiz..duno is tht gd or bad..it seem so unhealthy to me..lols...

poor yaya feet! hahaha
lili is so in love with mickey...dots!
Pillow fight! im so tired can. lols
sibling pics..the pyjamas tht we got...nice right..actuali i wanted the blue but my whole room pink..and i got too many blue le...lols...did u see my KUMA KUMA! lols...bb dislike kuma kuma..i dislike bb...humph!~ hahaha...nana said she wanna grab yaya feet to take pic...faint..wht so special abt yaya feet? lols..while taking this pic i am extremely slpy and tired..my eyes were closing..lols..immediately after the photo-takin..i KO. light off! lols..

nana going hk tml for training..well safe trip and enjoy the whole process and please take care and call hm ya!! wrong timing go...i havent get pay or nt will call her grab sum gd stuffs for me...lols..

one more day to have a gd rest...just finish laundry and restocking..damn the stupid mucus in my nose..arghh..

i miss my bb hug..:( will u hug me tight when u see me? i wanna eat hot pot with u..let try the new hotpot at aussiez..yum yum..dun care must go...must go...:p

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