moii tracks for 3 Apr
finally i watch finish the 47 episode show..
my whole family gt shocked when i gt glue to tv...
cuz this nv happen since a yr plus liao...
im a weird ger..i seldom watch tv..i hardly sit in front of the tv to watch any show..
wooo..gt mi crazy when dlin the show..cuz my com ran out of spaces..
ermm haha..gt too much rubbishs in my com le..
i did a spring cleanin in my com esp my music folder..gt sooo many old song..=P
hearin the song chong sheng while bloggin..currently is on my repeat mode..
todae guess i slp until evenin again n den have a nice dinner ermm maybe go shoppin with lili n paul ba..
duno hw workplc bcum le..curious n scare..sumhw i sense that my workloads is cumin bk n once again i need to carry it..
my product knowledges went dwn..cuz i delete those things in my nutcase to study for my exam..
so hard to recall..haix..bt nvm..i believe if i try i can..hehe..
startin to believe my own strength n oso decided to control my own destiny..
no one knows wht im thinkin or feelin rite nw..
sumhw i build a wall between my own world n e outside world..which i myself oso didnt realise it...
bloggin is e oli thing tht i left to let the pple who care abt mi noe hw am i doin..
after my show jux nw..i started to shift my room's furnitures again...
i haf 3 habits tht sumhw i can nv change..
one is when i felt upset or sense sumtin is goin soo wrong n hope to start anew i will start shiftin my room's furnitures..
sumhw my family got used to my weird stupid habit..haha..
ermm they wun haf shocked if i shift my bed frm this part of the room to the other end...one yr i duno do it hw many time le..haha..
ermm my second habit is my handwritin..when i am very very upset..my handwritin show it all..i will write especially small n neat..
n if im happy n feelin ok..my handwritin usually are big n neat..which most peeps saw..will start sayin..wow!! why ur handwritin soo big de? =P
n third is my eatin habits..when im upset or stress i eat super lots n is scary...
tried b4? u ate a bowl of noodle den follow by 2 bowls of rices..n u still feel hungry..
my eatin habits do scare pple off sumtime when im nt feelin happy...
haha..this is wht i observe abt myself..i wrote it dwn cuz is a reflections of my own habits..n i noe myself better le..
ermmm dad woke up n lili go woodland cc to do her products thingy..n mi..ermm shld be goin to my dreamland..
hopefully i wht oso dun dream of..jux a gd n deep slp..haha..nitez..=P

i dunoo wht am i feelin..my heart felt nthin at all..not sad,not happy..nthin..it seem soo peacefully which i seldom feel this way..i think i reali did lock my heart le..n i felt sooo cold to this world..my frens n everythin...duno why when i think of her i felt heart ache i oso felt a sense of hatred within..i hate this feelin..she jux a small ger..why am i reactin like this? haix..guess i get the ans soon..i noe god will explain to mi why i feel this way...maybe the times not rite yet..