Losing..
one pup passed away after 2 days of birth.
the feeling was awful. i hate it so much.
he cant drink reno milk and he cant swallow..
there nthin we could do. so i decided to bring him to the vet.
just when im arrangin for a cab..
he took his last gasp. n milk came out frm the nose. he is gone.
why?! why u dun wan to wait for mi bring u to the vet?
why everytime i wanna bring them go see doctor they left mi. mum stopped mi n said it was $25 consultation fees.
it bring mi back to kiki's death. it hurt so bad.:(
well tok abt sumtin else.
guess life was pretty fragile.
sometime im wonderin..why god sent him to earth n bring him bk after 2 daes?
he havent even open his eyes to see the world.

been skolin..busy with presentation n tutorial this week. n oso work.
almost everyday at work oli wed n tml. im off.
the weather pretty coolin nw. it so nice to slp. guess i need a rest soon. yawn
bb went off to bed n i promised once i clear the desktop ppt n blah rubbish i crawl to my bed n be a good baby.

finally dreams cuming true. im goin aussiez.
payin the air tix tml. well but im still thinkin SIA or Qantas? it worried mi. lols.
the service? the space? the food? its a long flight eh. 6 hrs plus hor! so no play play ltr cramp here n there den sian half. lols.
btw gt tv anot? omg. hahaha.

met an old fren one week back.
well i could said things changed. n i truly agreed that every single different stage of ur life u meet different pple n befriend n be close with different pple.
it's disappointin to drift apart. no matter is so n so or whoever. i might look cold frm the outer n act as if i dun care abt u. but u nv knew mi. guess it would be so nice if i didnt had been thru so much n met some awful pple along. well is over.
im happy with wht i have.
even though is a little frens,a family,a baby n my colleagues. guess is enuff. :)

im tired. k la. end here.
u are soooooo cute baby!! kiss kiss ar!
please take care of urself. it pains mi to see u like tht. sayang!