Recent Teachings...
after some time i decided to cum in to pen down my thoughts into words...
many things happen during the past 2 weeks..

2 weeks ago...my da yee..one of my aunt left me...
i am still recovering...recovering from the sadness that she is gone...
i guess i cried several time...
again n again i told myself to be strong...but guess i cry bitterly among my siblings..

the time....
- when my mum nag at me to bring "duan yuan dinner" for her at the home during new year eve...
- when i spent doing volunteer work at moral home...
- when i play games and does exercise with her at the home...n pamper her like a small kid and comfort her that she cant have any coins...
- when she call me "lai ming" and said bye bye to me after a long day at the home n look forward for my return..
- when she got beaten up by the maid at the home n i went to moral home HQ to verify and stood up for her...

all n all...it is in my memories....memories just like my grandma...goobye da-yee..

my mum side ladies are all strong woman...through thick and thin...they stood up strong...they do wht they can do...and protect their loved one from any harm...they love every single of their loved one whole heartedly...
whether it is my mum who love us by holding us up when we fall, or aunty diana who love every single one of us like her own child, or aunt fong who pamper us like a small kid...or aunt su who use money to get us whatever we wan..and da-yee..who stood up strong and bear with all those pain thru all life...

the recent disaster in other countries let known to me hw life can be so fragile and i couldnt imagine life without all this people around me nw...i think of future..i fear of future...i fear of losing them...aunty diana got admitted to hospital just a week ago...gratefully she discharge on the very day...when my mum call me n told me that...i broke dwn n cry...i cant afford to lose anyone anymore...i spent the whole evening n night with her at the hospital with BB and my mum..im glad she alright nw...

sunday was cristine wedding and then straight after that i went for vesak day 3 step 1 bow..i start the thing at 3 plus and ended at 6 plus..i only get abt 3 hrs slp on sat becuz we need to go over to aunt fong at 6am in the morning...the wedding was smooth going...and the event was great..everyone enjoyed it...cristine looked beautiful tht day...i hope she will have a wonderful wedding life ahead..:)

back to my job...due to the recent events...my store audit had been a big delay...SN is serving her last mth notice...n i cant imagine life without her in the office...the conflict between KL and ops side is getting bad to worse..things nt done by nor said by me was accused to be all done by me...KL accused me...i kept quiet..n im dumb enuff to said next time i will take note n be careful...STUPID! i got weaker day by day...my confidence seem to be fading off...and again..auditor is never easy with a boss that only know to talk but duno hw to do work..n talk finish accused me said that i said one...good one..i am still tolerating...n i noe sitting down n talk face to face to her is unavoidable..and so wht if i talk...she is not listening..sucks! she is nt qualified to be a boss...just becuz she gt 5 years of working experience in an external audit company make her a manager...n previously in tht company...she does work like mine..she dun even have the power to lead...n definitely i guess i prefer someone who can lead better n i can look upon to...i see no future..no appreciation...so im just gonna work n shut up...im stepping down from some of the impt role...throwing it back to her...becuz she dun even learn to trust...

next week...weekend would be so happening! zooo zooo zooo...BB n i are goin zoo...yeah! i need a break from all this....hw i wish i can travel and recharge again...but BB said no aussiez trip for me this yr...:( which mean i nv get recharge and im gonna die here...hahahaha...

sometime i wish i could be the one that to leave the world first before any of my loved one becuz the one remain hurt more than the one who leave... dun u agree?