Sleepless Night
Oh dear! it is only tuesday and i got a hard time getting myself to sleep. im dead!
tomorrow is gonna be a awful and tiring day..*shake head

i just wanna blog..wanna blog so much..
i need to get all those tots written down black and white..
or not by 5am i might not be in bed yet...
my brain just couldnt stop thinking..analyzing..reflecting...

Growing Up is a painful thing..
dun u dare think is easy and simple like ABC!
my mum couldnt help but to sit beside and goes on and on..about everyone's life and problem..
i am truly glad that she tryin all her ways and mean to help..
but as u can see..there is nothing much she can do..

CASE 1
my aunt house..running like a crazy fellow from north to central and central back to north..
bringing her everywhere to get legal aid but landed up was yelling and screaming in front of so many people at the MRT Station..
came to our house and collect and check thoroughly on whatever certificate and documents..
i thought da-yee death could bring her to see the truth of everything..instead she still think my mum is goin and chasing after her whatever!
i cant help but to stare at the tv screen real hard..seeing my fav ah sa on the tv..
but then..the inner side of me just wanna go up to her and yell at her real hard..
i control..but why did i control...every time i see her...i cant help but to think of all those bad memories..haix..but thinkin twice..she is mentally unstable..my temper, my anger....
CASE 2
Everyone is growing up...everyone is changin..i can definitely understand the time when i go through those terrible teenager life..i wish i could have a simple one..i wish i could have listen to every single adults that have wasted their saliva on me talking me round..again...there is nothing much i can do..just to let them do wht they wish and fall real hard on the ground...take it as im selfish or bad..and i am not interfering to a certain extent..i believe that is the only way they learn..
i believe everyone has a path to walk..and big lessons to learn during teenager life..it definitely hurt mothers to see them like this..but again..they have to learn through a tougher way since verbal warning is not require anymore..

who doesnt wan to born with a golden spoon..
who doesnt wan to be love and love people forever...
my point of view is...face the reality if u wasnt one..for one who realise his/her situation spare a thought to everyone around..for one who did not wan to face the reality is lying to himself/herself and hurtin every single one...
my point of view is...in my dictionary...FOREVER is not a word to use in a r/s..this word weigh so much that..how much sacrifice u gonna make all this while will earn u nothing but just another broken heart..believe it anot..nothin last forever..everyone come and goes in life..so how sure are u to think he/she is the right one for u...when u have another 3/4 more to go on with life..

till now...i still cant said that Leit is the right one for me..and I am the right one for her..WHY? because we are still tryin to get to noe more about each other every single day..so wht if u play and laugh and had lotsa good fun tgt..wht about the time when u needed someone, the time u needed help? or wht abt can u tolerate with each other moody days, angry time and frustration time..?

losing the opportunity to enter poly earlier on had wasted 2 yrs of my golden time..is an awful feeling and experience when u are just starting to work and people who are younger than u, gettin more pay than u and having the opportunity to take up a degree..and all u can do is to work extra hard in order to get wht u wan...this is the price to pay..an impt lesson to be learn...i envy more than jealous..i definitely blame no one but myself for not listening to anyone at all..haha..love is blind..and when the fold is taken away...look at the mess u created with ur own hand and those words that u hurt everyone who love u dearly...

hey children...is always good to be in the mother's arm...and when they are not around..don't cry and regret for saying she is a wicked old woman who only know how to bark...

it hurt so bad...that i heard this word said to a mother who contribute all her time, effort and so much for her children...i feel so pain..in tears...but i noe truly there is nothing much i can do for the mother for she loves her children so much and the children struggles to break free and care only about wht they feel and think...

life is never easy..u got to earn every single respect, every single trust...
if one could put themselves into their mother's shoe...bringing up all of you is never an easy job...

correct me if i am wrong..

why does ur mum yell and scream at u?
becuz she doesn't noe the proper and correct way to show u how much she loves u...
why does ur mum call you after u finished school and checked on you?
becuz she care about your safety and wanted so much to protect you from any harm even though she is far away from u...
why does ur mum stay up late at night and check whether are you soundly asleep?
becuz she is worry that u will kick ur blanket away and catch a cold..
why does ur mum cried late at night and finding ways and means to seek help to communicate with you...
becuz she loves u so much that she do not noe wht can she do anymore...

can u feel how helpless she is? pls love her and cherish her..