d3c!siOn-mAkin s3sSion~
ohh!! my com reali laggy nw..
jux as im dlin my service pack 2..gt to have tht to get sum protection..
my norton is gonna expired in fact ish already expired n den my spyware doctor ish up next to go expire..keep promptin mi to do sumtin abt it bt im helpless..=x
ishh all free trial thingy..arghh..lolx..
her msg ish slow todae bt nahh i dun feel sad at all..noe she strugglin with her skol work nw..jia you..i keep u company yahh..=p
her msg in da nite ishh reali heart-warmin..though ish jux a few words bt it simply make mi smile frm ear to ear..haha..
ermm tokin to ah sam...n nw she ish gone..she jux went off like this..lately she been like this..i duno wht happen to her..haix..
ermm stephy came tokin to mi..haix! she in da contradictin mood of whether happy or sad..win le!!
u noe stephy ishh one of my best fren tht i met in ite..she been thru rain n storm with mi n nv leave mi alone b4..she alwaz the first one to stand out n protect mi..n whenever i haf reali very terrible n upsettin events in my life..i jux alwaz have to turn bk..she is behind mi..=p
ermm back to my work todae..
oh yahh..been borin..nt too much of things to do..
went up to help wendy oso help lay lay key P.O..ermm den do my own dept stuffs..
ohh yeshh..surprisin n shocked..babe came find mi for dinner..
actuali bought cup noodle..but since babe came den my noodle will be tml meal..
eat my current fav..grilled fish..yummy~ =p
seriously i need to cut dwn on the amt of food im takin in..
n my eatin habits..haix!
ermm babe got the tigger hp pouch...i got the eeyore one..ishh soo cute..=p
this noon feel the pain at my tummy again..jux a short n sharp pain..
it didnt last for very long..bt it painful..=(
im havin migraine nw..need my painkiller...need sum rest soon...
the feelin of havin her around..ishh nice..n reali swt..
though we are far apart..bt i feel her soo close to mi..
i make a decision...am brave n quick abt sortin out my tots n feelin..
i guess i did nt need to make it clear dwn here..as long as im clear abt my own tots n decision..
n at the same time she noes hw i feel..n my decision..is enuff le..
wonderin ish she happy? reali curious abt her expression?
is she smilin oso when she saw my msg? is she feelin hw i feel??
she is afraid of hurtin mi again..nt givin mi any promises n hopes..
she duno wht to sae..guess wht all of us needed ish time..=p
if we were meant to be we will be...
am strong nw..nt afraid of the hurt..love does feel hurt sumtime..
i jux wanna wait for the dae she return n stone with mi once again....

i felt guilt sumhw abt the decision i make bt i rather be selfish to myself den to hurt anyone of u..esp ah sam..i noe im waitin for a hope tht ishh soo hard to cum true bt i rather stay in this world cuz i seriously think im nt worth for all the love..i cant give wht a gf can gif..the time..the attention n maybe the care..u seriously felt pisses off by mi why am i soo bz all this while...sumtime i cant even find some air to breathe..tht few hrs online every single nite ish the oli time i can relax n do sumtin i like to do..time ishh nv enuff for mi..u would nv wan a ger like mi..i noe..im sorry..

am blessed by an angel..tht ishh u..protectin mi n guidin mi thru..
for nw i noe the ans..im happy with uuu..i dun care whether u gonna hurt mi..jux wanna grab hold of u real tight~..*m!sS!n +!31*